my path through life...

ujian: musibah atau rahmat?

2012-02-07T18:23:00.004+11:00

Tidak ada ujian yang Allah turunkan kat kite yg kite x mampu nk handle...

Allah bagi ujian tu sbb Dia sayang kt kita kan? Sbb Allah rindu sgt kt kita....nak dengar suara kita bercakap dengan Dia, rindu segala amal baik yang kita buat untuk Dia, rindu nk tgk kita dgn rendah diri sujud di tikar sejadah untuk memohon pertolongan....

kenapa la kita ni senang sgt lupa kat Allah sampaikan Dia perlu menurunkan kesusahan atau dugaan dlm hidup, barulah kita terkial-kial nak merayu padaNya.....

i learnt this the hard way.....and still am learning...

but remember, don't despair and never lose hope....jgn igt once u get into trouble, its the end of the world...Allah is always there to help and guide you through it if u ask and put full trust in Him with all tour heart....

walaupun ditimpa kesusahan, be grateful...say Alhamdulillah....think about other people who has bigger and worse problems than what u have...insyaAllah, by doing so, you will have much gratitude to Allah

obstacles does not mean that its punishment....tu la mentality yang most of us have....sbb tu kite senang jauh dari Allah..why? sbb kadang2 kita rasa, kita dh buat baik dah tp Allah still bagi kesusahan...jgn fikir mcm tu...nanti kite senang putus asa dgn Allah...

instead think of it as a blessing...we might not see it yet but there is a silver lining somewhere somehow....Allah created us, so of course He knows what is best for us....who are we to think that this thing is good for us but that thing is bad for us...what do we know? we don't even have the nearest answer to most medical problems within our own body...

enough chatter, lets remember Allah in every single breath that we take and be grateful with everything that you have in life...

this is a reminder for all of us especially to myself

Ramadhan, perkataan yang tersirat....

2011-07-22T11:19:00.001+10:00

just read this from a blog...very interesting....

Ra – Mim – Dhod – Alif – Nun

Tersirat daripada perkataan huruf RA-MA-D-A-N

Ra – adalah Rahmah

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan rahmah. Didalamnya dilimpahi dengan pelbagai kerahmatan dan kenikmatan yang tidak terhitung untuk hamba-hamba Allah SWT dan seluruh manusia.

Mim – adalah Maghfirah ( Keampunan)

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan keampunan. Allah SWT membuka ruang dan pintu keampunan seluas-luasnya bagi hambaNya yang memohon keampunan serta menginsafi diri di setiap detik di dalam bulan Ramadhan.

Dari Abu Hurairah telah bersabda Rasulullah SAW yang bermaksud :

“ Sesiapa yang berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan berdasarkan iman dan penuh kesedaran mengharapkan Allah maka diampuni dosa-dosa yang terdahulu sebagaimana hari dilahirkan oleh ibunya.” ( HR Ibnu Khuzaimah)

Dhod – adalah Dhoman ( Jaminan)

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan yang diberikan jaminan oleh Allah SWT sebagai bulan yang akan memberikan seribu kebaikan dan ganjaran Syurga bagi sesiapa yang menggunakan kesempatan ini dengan sebaiknya. Jaminan ini adalah jaminan yang tiada tandingannya berbanding bulan-bulan yang lain.

Alif – adalah Amana

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan keamanan, ketenangan dan kebahagiaan. Hati dan jiwa kita benar-benar tenang dengan kehadiran dan perasaan nyaman serta tenteram selalu menyelubungi sanubari kita sepanjang berada di dalam bulan yang penuh keberkatan ini. Inilah kehebatan dan keunikan Ramadhan.

Nun – adalah Nur

Bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan yang sentiasa dilimpahi dengan cahaya hidayah dan keimanan daripada Allah SWT. Bagi yang mencintai dan merindui kehadiran bulan yang penuh kerahmatan ini, akan menyedarikan bahawa sinar Ramadhan adalah sinar yang terang benderang memberi pengharapan dan kekuatan kepada jiwa untuk berusaha bersungguh-sungguh bagi melahirkan seorang mukmin muslim yang bertaqwa dalam erti kata yang sebenarnya.

Firman Allah SWT yang bermaksud :

“ Pada bulan Ramadhan diturunkan kitab suci Al-Quran sebagai petunjuk bagi manusia dan penjelasan-penjelasan mengenai petunjuk itu, dan garis pemisah antara hak dan yang batil.” [ Al- Baqarah (2) : 185]

Jika bulan Ramadhan datang, Rasulullah SAW biasanya menyambut dengan ucapan :

“ Selamat Datang Wahai orang yang menyucikan.”

Para sahabat bertanya :

“ Siapakah orang yang menyucikan itu wahai Rasulullah ?”

Baginda menjawab :

“ Orang yang menyucikan itu ialah bulan Ramadhan. Ia menyucikan kita daripada segala dosa dan maksiat!.”

last minute solah

2011-07-01T17:52:00.000+10:00

He remembered his grandmother' s warning about praying on time:

'My son, you shouldn't leave prayer to this late time'.

His grandmother' s age was 70 but, whenever she heard the Adhan, she got up like an arrow and performed the Solat.

He, however could never win over his ego to get up and pray.

Whatever he did, his Solat was always the last to be offered and he prayed it quickly to get it in on time.

Thinking of this, he got up and realized that there were only 15 minutes left before Salat-ul Isha'.

He quickly made Wudhu and performed Salat-ul Maghrib.

While making Tasbih, he again remembered his grandmother and was embarrassed by how he had prayed.

His grandmother prayed with such tranquillity and peace.

He began making Dua and went down to make Sajdah and stayed like that for a while.

He had been at work all day and was tired, very tired.

He awoke abruptly to the sound of noise and shouting.

He was sweating profusely. He looked around. It was very crowded.

Every direction he looked in was filled with people.

Some stood frozen looking around, some were running left and right and some were on their knees with their heads in their hands just waiting.

Pure fear and apprehension filled him as he realized where he was. His heart was about to burst.

It was the Day of Judgment.

When he was alive, he had heard many things about the questioning on the Day of Judgment, but that seemed so long ago.

Could this be something his mind made up?

No, the wait and the fear were so great that he could not have imagined this.

The interrogation was still going on.

He began moving frantically from people to people to ask if his name had been called. No one could answer him.

All of a sudden his name was called and the crowd split into two and made a passageway for him.

Two angels grabbed his arms and led him forward. He walked with unknowing eyes through the crowd. The angels brought him to the centre and left him there.

His head was bent down and his whole life was passing in front of his eyes like a movie.

He opened his eyes but saw only another world.

The people were all helping others.

He saw his father running from one lecture to the other, spending his wealth in the way of Islam.

His mother invited guests to their house and one table was being set while the other was being cleared.

He pleaded his case, 'I too was always on this path. I helped others. I spread the word of Allah. I performed my Salah. I fasted in the month of Ramadhan.'

'Whatever Allah ordered us to do, I did.'

'Whatever he ordered us not to do, I did not.'

He began to cry and think about how much he loved Allah.

He knew that whatever he had done in life would be less than what Allah deserved and his only protector was Allah He was sweating like never before and was shaking all over.

His eyes were fixed on the scale, waiting for the final decision. At last, the decision was made.

The two angels with sheets of paper in their hands, turned to the crowd.

His legs felt like they were going to collapse. He closed his eyes as they began

To read the names of those people who were to enter Jahannam.

His name was read first.

He fell on his knees and yelled that this couldn't be,

'How could I go to Jahannam? I served others all my life, I spread the word of Allah

to others.'

His eyes had become blurry and he was shaking with sweat.

The two angels took him by the arms.

As his feet dragged, they went through the crowd and advanced toward

the blazing flames of Jahannam.

He was yelling and wondered if there was any person who was going to help him.

He was yelling of all the good deeds he had done, how he had helped his father, his fasts, prayers, the Noble Qur'an that he read, he was asking if none of them would help him.

The Jahannam angels continued to drag him.

They had gotten closer to the Hellfire.

He looked back and these were his last pleas.

Had not Rasulullah [PBUH] said, 'How clean would a person be who bathes in a river five times a day, so too does the Salah performed five times cleanse someone of their sins?'

He began yelling, 'My prayers? My prayers? My prayers?'

The two angels did not stop, and they came to the edge of the abyss of Jahannam.

The flames of the fire were burning his face.

He looked back one last time, but his eyes were dry of hope and he had nothing left in him.

One of the angels pushed him in.

He found himself in the air and falling towards the flames.

He had just fallen five or six feet when a hand grabbed him by the arm and pulled him back.

He lifted his head and saw an old man with a long white beard.

He wiped some dust off himself and asked him, 'Who are you?'

The old man replied, 'I am your prayers.'

'Why are you so late?! I was almost in the Fire! You rescued me at the

last minute before I fell in.'

The old man smiled and shook his head, 'You always performed me at the

last minute, did you forget?'

At that instant, he blinked and lifted his head from Sajdah. He was in a sweat. He listened to the voices coming from outside.

He heard the Adhan for Salat-ul Isha.

He got up quickly and went to perform Wudhu.

Pass this on to your friends and family......

Maybe, you can help someone open their eyes.

And who knows?

Maybe, this is a good deed that can help you during The Day of Judgment. INSHA-ALLAH

the day my mom is sent to the world...

2011-06-26T10:08:00.002+10:00

If I could give you diamonds
for each tear you cried for me.
If I could give you sapphires
for each truth you’ve helped me see.
If I could give you rubies
for the heartache that you’ve known
If I could give you pearls
for the wisdom that you’ve shown.
Then you’ll have a treasure, mother,
that would mount up to the skies
That would almost match
the sparkle in your kind and loving eyes.
But I have no pearls, no diamonds,
As I’m sure you’re well aware
So I’ll give you gifts more precious
My devotion, love and care.

I LOVE YOU MOM!!
Ya Allah, thank you for sending such a wonderful mother to me....
Please bless her with all the happiness each and everyday in this life and the hereafter, Ya Rabb.
For she is the person who makes me feel like I'm always blessed and happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAK!!!

thank you.....

2011-06-20T22:16:00.002+10:00

Thank you for always being there
and knowing just what to do
Thank you for knowing the words to say
when I'm feeling way beyond blue

Thank you for patiently listening
to all my worries and stresses
Thank you for caring enough
to get me out of all my messes

Thank you for being a phone call away
or around the corner to run to
Thank you for your door always being open
and knowing just what to do

Thank you for being my constant support
when i didn't think I could cope
Thank you for lifting my spirits
and letting me know there is hope

Thank you for being the best parents
a daughter could ever wish for
I love you with all my heart
today and forever more.

As I look back on my life
I find myself wondering...
Did I remember to thank you
for all that you have done for me?

For all of the times you were by my side
to help me celebrate my successes
and accept my defeats?

Or for teaching me the value of hard work,
good judgement, courage, and honesty?

I wonder if I've ever thanked you
for the simple things...
The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared?

If I have forgotten to express my gratitude
For any of these things,
I am thanking you now...
and I am hoping that you've known all along,
how very much you are loved and appreciated

THANK YOU MAK & ABAH!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!

My Abah.....

2011-06-19T11:10:00.005+10:00

In a time when fathers are totally absent,

gone most of the time,
or physically present but mentally distracted,
you are there for me—
looking at me, listening to me
understanding me, talking with me.
You make time for me
even when it’s inconvenient for you.
You make me feel important to you.

I learn from you when you teach me,
when I watch you do things,
and when I observe you
just being you—a terrific father.

Every affectionate smile you give me,
every pat on the back, every hug
shows me you love me,
that you’re proud of me.

These are things I’ll remember
to do for my own kids.
You’re a great role model, ABAH.
I want to be just like you.

ABAH is a person
who is loving and kind,
And often he knows
what you have on your mind.
He's someone who listens,
suggests, and defends.
ABAH can be one of your very best friends!
He's proud of your triumphs,
but when things go wrong,
ABAH can be patient and helpful and strong
In all that you do,
ABAH's love plays a part.
There's always a place for him
deep in your heart.
And each year that passes,
you're even more glad,
More grateful and proud
just to call him your ABAH!
Thank you, ABAH...
for listening and caring,
for giving and sharing,
but, especially, for just being you!

LUCKIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD....

2011-05-07T23:47:00.004+10:00

I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you had to stay a month long in hospital after I was born
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you put a wet cloth on my forehead if I had a fever
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you quickly find my school uniform when I cried in the morning for waking up late to school
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you had to sleep beside my bed to keep me accompany in the hospital after my appendicectomy
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you made sure that I had all my textbooks and exercise books each year
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you studied my subjects for exam so that you can teach me later
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you sent me for tuition or extra-curricular activities day and night without complain
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you bought exercise books for me to practice for exams though they costs a lot
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you find time to go to my award ceremony each year to watch me go up the stage
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you rushed to the bank when you heard that I had little money to spend
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you put on a strong face everytime you sent me to the hostel which was miles away from home
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you helped clean me up after the vomiting and diarrhoea from the food poisoning
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would sent me each early of the year to the hostel though it was hours of journey
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you rushed to the tailor to make sure I wore new clothes to my PMR award ceremony
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would teach me again & again without fail about baking cakes and 'kuih raya'
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you were the one who motivated me for each exam
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would pray throughout my 2-hour or 3-hour exam papers
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you did nazar fasting whenever my results turned out well
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would sent me all the 'rempah' while studying abroad to make sure I'd be able to eat what I like
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would always ask me what to eat and run to the market when I'm home
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would endure an 8-hour flight journey which was gruesome to you to visit me
I WISH I REALIZED THEN when you would always have new clothes for me each time I come home.......

I know that those I mentioned are just like a grain of sand on a beach for all that you have done for me....
I WISH I REALIZED THEN about them all.....
NOW, all I wish is that I could appreciate you more now than I ever had before....

Mak,
for all that you have done for me endlessly and effortlessly, THANK YOU....
for all the mistakes I have done to you before, now and coming, I'M SORRY....
for us being apart now by miles, I MISS YOU.....
for me to express myself what I feel about you, I LOVE YOU...

Mak,
you brought me into this world,
you fed me,
you cared for me,
you loved me,
like no one else in this world.......

You are trully one GREATEST MOM in the the world and no treasure in the world could ever replace you....
and I'm truly the LUCKIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD!!!
May Allah bless you with all the greatness in your life here and the hereafter.....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Allah The Most Gracious....

2011-04-28T11:18:00.002+10:00

Rasulullah SAW said: "Ask and you shall be given it; and you shall be given it." [At-Tarmidzi]

Rasulullah SAW said: "Let everyone of you ask of His Lord all that he wants." [At-Tarmidzi]

We were informed by our beloved Prophet SAW that Allah SWT fulfills everybody's wishes so long as a perso does not get impatient and say, " I asked Allah for so and so and I still haven't received it." We are told never to despair of the mercy of Allah SWT. Remember Maher Zain's InshaAllah??

Don't despair and never lose hope, cause Allah is always by your side.....

Rasulullah SAW informed us that there are several forms for the acceptance of doa.

1) You are given what you ask

2) You are given better than what you asked for

3) Some calamity that was about to befall you has been averted instead

4) The doa is saved up for you as a reward for The Day of Judgement.

If you think of it from all these different forms, there's never a time when asking Allah SWT for thing is not beneficial. It is a form of blessing on its own special way. So what are you waiting for? Keep the prayers going on throughout the day for Allah loves to hear the voice of His servants asking Him for help.

"Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahawasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia memohon kepadaKu, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepadaKu, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran" -Al-Baqarah [2:186]-

don't be sad....

2011-04-06T22:01:00.002+10:00

Allah always has a way to cheer and comfort His servants. Being in PMS for the past week and so stressed out with all sorts of assignments, really adds up to the pressure of performing my best in GP placement. But despite some of the disappointments that I have about how I am doing during GP, Allah sent me a patient who is very pleasant to deal with. His name is Mr. Pleasant. Ironic isn't it?? I would say he is the nicest patient I met since I ever started studying medicine. Thank you Allah. At one moment, I was wondering why did I ever take medicine in the first place. But by sending this particular patient, Allah really had showed me that I really want to do my best in medicine and be a great doctor for which I hope can one day help the Islamic ummah the best way I could. Ya Allah, with all the blessings You have bestowed upon me, how can I not be grateful?? Please guide me to the right path Ya Allah so that everything I intend to do is always with You being the first to be in my mind. True enough, Allah has showed me again and again without fail, for those who believe, you don't have to be sad or afraid.

"Bahkan barangsiapa yang menyerahkan diri kepada Allah, sedang ia berbuat kebajikan, maka baginya pahala di sisi Tuhannya dan tidak ada kekhuatiran terhadap mereka dan tidak pula mereka bersedih hati" -Al-Baqarah [2:112]-

lesson of the day....

2011-04-02T17:58:00.003+11:00

Rasulullah SAW said: "Whoever does not argue when he is in the wrong will have a home built for him on the edge of Paradise. Whoever avoids it when he is in the right will have a home built for him in the middle of Paradise. And whoever improves his own character, a home will be built for him in the highest part of Paradise" [At-Tarmidzi]

Arguing with people is strongly discouraged in Islam. We are to state our point of view and then leave it at that. Nor are we to involve ourselves in matters that do not affect a person's deen. Note that a person is to shun argument whether he is in the right or whether his stand is wrong. Both get houses built for them in Paradise. But since the person who knows that he is right finds it more difficult to leave the argument and let things be, he/she is promised a greater reward.

Arguing with people rarely gets anyone to change their minds. It usually only produces defensiveness and creates ill feelings between people. The issue becomes a matter of one's ego and makes it more difficult for a person to change their stance. Allah SWT loves to have Muslims live harmoniously with each other.

This is a reminder for myself who tend to get so heated up to argue especially when I'm super positive that I am right. I hope that everyone especially myself always have this hadis in mind whenever you are ever thinking about arguing. Isn't Islam beautiful?

ayat cinta Allah to me....

2011-03-01T23:00:00.002+11:00

".....Sesungguhnya Allah menyesatkan siapa yang Dia kehendaki dan memberi petunjuk orang yang bertaubat kepadaNya. Iaitu orang-orang yang beriman dan hati mereka menjadi tenteram dengan mengingati Allah. Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati menjadi tenteram"

Ar-Radh [13: 27-28]

These few weeks was really stressful for me. Not really sure why. Maybe since GP placement has started. Going to the placement just made me wonder whether I am taking the right path towards a career that I really want. 3rd year up to this point has been really overwhelming. I guess it is partly because now I feel like it's the real thing now. Its no longer studying for exams. I really need to study hard because it's human lives I'm dealing with. Not just pieces of papers and stimulated patients at the end of the semester. With my GP never failing to continuously ask me questions, and being me who can't recall most of the things that I have already learnt is really frustrating. But to think back, maybe it is a good thing. At least, he made me stressed enough to push me to study. But yeah, the end result is that I'm really stressed out thinking that that is all I have to do now with my time. STUDY. STUDY. and more STUDYing.
From all these stressful situations, I may have moved myself away from Allah. I did less solat sunat and less Quran reading just because I need more time to study. As if, the time was really used for studying anyway. I'm still lazy to study (not that lazy that I don't study at all of course). I still sleep early and wake up late in the morning. Even if I do sleep late at night, it was never because I was studying. It's either Facebook-ing or watching korean drama. I even added extra activities such as learning korean and playing the keyboard thinking that I must have other non-medical stuff to do because I easily get bored from studying. Instead I did more of the non-medical stuff. So much of rewarding/bribing myself into studying.
But then, today, while I was studying with my friends, I realized that they really know lots of medical stuff that I didn't even ring any bell in my brain. Coming back home, my housemate was telling me her experience in her GP placement and her achievement to answer a difficult question by the GP and having the experience to do a medical procedure (not a major one of course, we might be sued!!). I got really stressed out especially with the additional eye pain I'm having. (such irony of having eye pain on m ophthalmology week..haha). So while taking my shower, I cried my eyes out or should I say medically that I had an epiphora episode. Then I performed my prayers and read the Quran.

I have to say, ALHAMDULILLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH, ALHAMDULILLAH. Somehow Allah made me want to read the Quran today and pray the solat sunat. It was when I was reading the Quran that I cam across the verse as stated above. "The heart can only be peaceful by remembering Allah". Those words really struck my heart. My heart haven't landed in a peaceful state these past few weeks. And seriously, just by reading these words, that I my heart found its peace. I know, I know. The words didn't solve my problem of needing to study. Its not like after reading those words, all the medical knowledge in the world is magically bluetooth/downloaded into my brain. I know. But they somehow successfully comforted my struggling heart. The power of the Quran I must say. I have no doubt at all. Allah is The Greatest indeed!!! No human in this world can ever comfort my heart with just a sentence. Reading between the lines of the verse, I see that all I can do is putting my best effort and leave the rest to Allah. Allah is The Biggest Planner. He knows everything. The first thing I have to do is of course to change my attitude from laziness to hardworking-ness. The rest is up to Allah. Whatever He has planned is the best for me. I put my full trust in Allah.

Such long babbling. Hahahahaha....Actually, the take home message from my story is that I advice anyone out there whose heart is not at peace, just REMEMBER ALLAH....it's just as simple as that.....whenever you feel troubled, just open the Quran and read a page or two...insyaAllah, Allah's words are all you need to comfort your heart. It might even solve the problem. Allah is The Greatest. So why trust anyone else but HIM???

Barakallah Bestfriend!!!

2011-02-19T11:06:00.002+11:00

I am so happy for you. Allah has indeed sent someone who insyaAllah completes you. I pray for the best for both of you. May Allah bless our friendship till the day we die.......i miss u lots!!

......

2011-01-29T12:11:00.002+11:00

There are only two ways to live your live...

ONE is as though nothing is a miracle,

TWO is as though EVERYTHING is a MIRACLE..........

All praises to Allah SWT....

merdeka!!

2010-11-17T20:33:00.002+11:00

at last, i'm free from all those pulling-hair-until-bald questions......

i've tried my very best and i can only leave everything to Allah now......

i'll pray very hard for everyone's success...thats my only effort left....

plus, i should enjoy my holiday!!! HOOORRRAAAYYYY!!!!!

can't wait to be back to beloved-'landwater' MALAYSIA.........

weeeehoooooooo.......

the last lecture...

2010-10-12T01:38:00.009+11:00

This is amazing, Randy Pausch died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book ‘The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind.

In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan , and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "Guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.

May you be blessed by his insight.

POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:

1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment

3. Don't over do; keep your limits

4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does

5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip

6. Dream more while you are awake

7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..

8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.

10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present

11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you

12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.

Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

13. Smile and laugh more

14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:

15. Call your family often

16. Each day give something good to others

17. Forgive everyone for everything

18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6

19. Try to make at least three people smile each day

20. What other people think of you is none of your business

21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.

23. GOD heals everything

24. Do the right things

25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change

26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up

27. The best is yet to come

28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful

29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it

30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with, people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.

Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

the world is mine...

2010-10-08T12:11:00.002+11:00

Today, upon a bus,

I saw a girl with golden hair,

And i wished I was as fair,

When suddenly she rose to leave,

I saw her hobble down the aisle,

She had one leg and wore a crutch.

But as she passed, a smile,

Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine,

I have 2 legs, the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy,

The lad who sold it had such charm,

I talked, with him he seemed so glad,

If I were late, it'd do no harm,

And as I left, he said to me,

"I thank you, you've been so kind,

It's nice to talk to folks like you,

You see," he said, "I'm blind",

Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine,

I have 2 eyes, the world is mine.

Later while walking down the street,

I saw a child with eyes of blue,

He stood and watch the others play,

He did know what to do,

I stopped a moment and then I said,

"Why don't you join the others, dear?",

He looked ahead without a word,

Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine,

I have 2 ears, the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I'd go,

With eyes to see the sunset's glow,

With ears to hear what I'd know,

Ya Allah, forgive me when I whine,

I've been blessed indeed, the world is mine.

forgive me....

2010-08-26T20:14:00.003+10:00

Ya Allah,

for all the years i have been totally ignorant to the true teachings of Islam, forgive me...

for all the years i have took Islam very lightly in my life, forgive me....

for all the years i took for granted of everything you've given me, forgive me....

for all the years i pray to you but with not an ounce of sincerity, forgive me....

for all the years i felt embarrassed to portray as a good muslim, forgive me...

for all the years i never put You above everything else, forgive me....

for all the years i never loved Prophet Muhammad SAW more than i loved myself, forgive me...

for all the years i was never satisfied with what i have, forgive me....

for all the years i was only working hard for this world and not the hereafter, forgive me...

for all the years i keep doing the things You forbid, forgive me.....

for You are The Most Forgiving....

and i hope for the years to come

i would love You with all my heart,

that i would do anything, and i really mean anything, for Your sake...

to seek Your pleasure and blessings.....

for You are enough for me.....amin.....

Therefore remember Me, I will remember you, and be thankful to Me, and do not be ungrateful to Me [Quran 2:152)

sisterhood....

2010-08-19T20:25:00.002+10:00

alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah who has blessed me with such beautiful people in life....

they are not only physically beautiful but internally SUPERBly beautiful...

alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah......

thank u my dearest sisters....

thanks for coming into my life....for Allah's sake, you are all now my sisters....

and i love you all with all my heart.....

this Ramadhan has been very different and you have added another special meaning to it....

alhamdulillah......may Allah bless us all........

'O mankind, indeed We have created you from male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted'

[Al-Hujurat (49): 13]

7 malaikat, 7 langit & ikhlas...

2010-08-01T12:00:00.002+10:00

This article is given my senior. It might be long but it is a MUST READ!! After reading it, i felt some hard slaps on the face!!

Dari Muaz, Rasulullah SAW bersabda :

"Puji syukur ke hadrat Allah SWT yang menghendaki agar makhluk-Nya menurut kehendak-Nya, wahai Muaz!"

Jawabku, "Ya, Sayidil Mursalin."

Sabda Rasulullah SAW, "Sekarang aku akan menceritakan sesuatu kepadamu yang apabila engkau hafalkan (diambil perhatian) olehmu akan berguna tetapi kalau engkau lupakan (tidak dipedulikan) olehmu maka kamu tidak akan mempunyai alasan di hadapan Allah kelak."

"Hai Muaz, Allah itu menciptakan tujuh malaikat sebelum Dia menciptakan langit dari bumi. Setiap langit ada satu malaikat yang menjaga pintu langit dan tiap-tiap pintu langit dijaga oleh malaikat penjaga pintu menurut ukuran pintu dan keagungannya."

"Maka malaikat yang memelihara amalan si hamba (malaikat hafazah) akan naik ke langit membawa amal itu ke langit pertama. Penjaga langit pertama akan berkata kepada malaikat Hafazah,"Saya penjaga tukang mengumpat. Lemparkan kembali amalan itu ke muka pemiliknya karena saya diperintahkan untuk tidak menerima amalan tukang mengumpat".

"Esoknya, naik lagi malaikat Hafazah membawa amalan si hamba. Di langit kedua penjaga pintunya berkata,"Lemparkan kembali amalan itu ke muka pemiliknya sebab dia beramal karena mengharapkan keduniaan. Allah memerintahkan supaya amalan itu ditahan jangan sampai lepas ke langit yang lain."

"Kemudian naik lagi malaikat Hafazah ke langit ketiga membawa amalan yang sungguh indah. Penjaga langit ketiga berkata, "Lemparkan kembali amalan itu ke muka pemiliknya karena dia seorang yang sombong."

Rasulullah SAW meneruskan sabdanya,

"Berikutnya malaikat Hafazah membawa lagi amalan si hamba ke langit keempat. Lalu penjaga langit itu berkata,"Lemparkan kembali amalan itu ke muka pemiliknya. Dia seorang yang ujub. Allah memerintahkan aku menahan amalan si ujub."

Seterusnya amalan si hamba yang lulus ke langit kelima dalam keadaan bercahaya-cahaya dengan jihad, haji, umrah dan lain-lain. Tetapi di pintu langit penjaganya berkata,"Itu adalah amalan tukang hasad. Dia sangat benci pada nikmat yang Allah berikan pada hamba-Nya. Dia tidak redha dengan kehendak Allah. Sebab itu Allah perintahkan amalannya dilemparkan kembali ke mukanya. Allah tidak terima amalan pendengki dan hasad."

Di langit keenam, penjaga pintu akan berkata,"Saya penjaga rahmat. Saya diperintahkan untuk melemparkan kembali amalan yang indah itu ke muka pemiliknya karena dia tidak pernah mengasihi orang lain. Kalau orang dapat musibah dia merasa senang. Sebab itu amalan itu jangan melintasi langit ini."

Malaikat Hafazah naik lagi membawa amalan si hamba yang dapat lepas hingga ke langit ketujuh. Cahayanya bagaikan kilat, suaranya bergemuruh. Di antara amalan itu ialah shalat, puasa, sedekah, jihad, warak dan lain-lain.

Tetapi penjaga pintu langit berkata,"Saya ini penjaga sum’ah (ingin kemasyhuran). Sesungguhnya si hamba ini ingin termasyhur dalam kelompoknya dan selalu ingin tinggi di saat berkumpul dengan kawan-kawan yang sebaya dan ingin mendapat pengaruh dari para pemimpin. Allah memerintahkan padaku agar amalan itu jangan melintasiku. Tiap-tiap amalan yang tidak bersih karena Allah maka itulah riya'. Allah tidak akan menerima dan mengabulkan orang-orang yang riya'."

Kemudian malaikat Hafazah itu naik lagi dengan membawa amal hamba yakni shalat, puasa, zakat, haji, umrah, akhlak yang baik dan mulia serta zikir pada Allah. Amalan itu diiringi malaikat ke langit ketujuh hingga melintasi hijab-hijab dan sampailah ke hadirat Allah SWT.

Semua malaikat berdiri di hadapan Allah dan semua menyaksikan amalan itu sebagai amalan soleh yang betul-betul ikhlas untuk Allah.

Tetapi firman Tuhan,"Hafazah sekalian, pencatat amal hamba-Ku, Aku adalah pemilik hatinya dan Aku lebih mengetahui apa yang dimaksudkan oleh hamba-Ku ini dengan amalannya. Dia tidak ikhlas pada-Ku dengan amalannya. Dia menipu orang lain, menipu kamu (malaikat Hafazah) tetapi tidak bisa menipu Aku. Aku adalah Maha Mengetahui."

"Aku melihat segala isi hati dan tidak akan terlindung bagi-Ku apa saja yang terlindung. Pengetahuan-Ku atas apa yang telah terjadi adalah sama dengan pengetahuan-Ku atas apa yang bakal terjadi."

"Pengetahuan-Ku atas orang yang terdahulu adalah sama dengan Pengetahuan-Ku atas orang-orang yang datang kemudian. Kalau begitu bagaimana hamba-Ku ini menipu Aku dengan amalannya ini?"

"Laknat-Ku tetap padanya."

Dan ketujuh-tujuh malaikat beserta 3000 malaikat yang mengiringinya pun berkata:

"Ya Tuhan, dengan demikian tetaplah laknat-Mu dan laknat kami sekalian bagi mereka."

Dan semua yang di langit turut berkata,"Tetaplah laknat Allah kepadanya dan laknat orang yang melaknat."

Sayidina Muaz (yang meriwayatkan hadist ini) kemudian menangis terisak-isak dan berkata, "Ya Rasulullah, bagaimana aku dapat selamat dari apa yang diceritakan ini?"

Sabda Rasulullah SAW, "Hai Muaz, ikutilah Nabimu dalam soal keyakinan."

Muaz bertanya kembali,"Ya, tuan ini Rasulullah sedangkan saya ini hanyalah si Muaz bin Jabal, bagaimana saya dapat selamat dan bisa lepas dari bahaya tersebut?"

Bersabda Rasulullah, "Ya begitulah, kalau dalam amalanmu ada kelalaian maka tahanlah lidahmu jangan sampai memburukkan orang lain. Ingatlah dirimu sendiri pun penuh dengan aib maka janganlah mengangkat diri dan menekan orang lain."

"Jangan riya' dengan amal supaya amal itu diketahui orang. Jangan termasuk orang yang mementingkan dunia dengan melupakan akhirat. Kamu jangan berbisik berdua ketika disebelahmu ada orang lain yang tidak diajak berbisik. Jangan takabur pada orang lain nanti luput amalanmu dunia dan akhirat dan jangan berkata kasar dalam suatu majlis dengan maksud supaya orang takut padamu, jangan mengungkit-ungkit apabila membuat kebaikan, jangan mengoyak perasaan orang lain dengan mulutmu, karena kelak engkau akan dikoyak-koyak oleh anjing-anjing neraka jahanam."

Sebagaimana firman Allah yang bermaksud,"Di neraka itu ada anjing-anjing yang mengoyak badan manusia."

Muaz berkata, "Ya Rasulullah, siapa yang tahan menanggung penderitaan semacam itu?"

Jawab Rasulullah SAW, "Muaz, yang kami ceritakan itu akan mudah bagi mereka yang dimudahkan oleh Allah SWT. Cukuplah untuk menghindari semua itu, kamu menyayangi orang lain sebagaimana kamu mengasihi dirimu sendiri dan benci bila sesuatu yang dibenci olehmu terjadi pada orang lain. Kalau begitu kamu akan selamat dan dirimu pasti akan terhindar dari api neraka."

new chapter...

2010-07-21T18:18:00.002+10:00

another semester of torturing long lectures...

another semester of painful PBL tutorial openings & closings...

another semester of dreadful hospital visits...

another semester of sickening assignments...

another semester of haunting EXAMS...

but also

another semester of exciting new stuff to learn about the human body...

another semester of fantastic clinical skills to learn making me more like a doctor...

another semester of incredible events no matter medically related or not...

another semester of joyful anatomy lab sessions...

another semester of amazing time with friends...

i love being a medical student....

a new semester, a new me....insyaAllah....

i hope to change into a better MUSLIM medical student insyaAllah....

even Allah has mentioned that Allah wouldn't help servants who wouldn't help themselves first...

so insyaAllah, let us all make the effort together to change for the better in seeking Allah's pleasure & blessings....

tawakkal....

2010-06-18T11:21:00.002+10:00

Alhamdulillah, i thought the exams would never end....

i tried my very best, so now my last effort would be non-stop prayers to Allah for the success of me & my friends....

insyaAllah, Allah is always remember us if we remember Him......

as for now, i have a few projects planned for this one-month holiday....

hopefully, with Allah's will i would fulfill most of them.....

Ya Allah, help me be a better person...

a humble servant who is trying her best in seeking Your blessings....

insyaAllah.....

its gonna be fine....

2010-06-08T19:11:00.002+10:00

Ya Allah, i don't whether my answers are right or wrong (though i know some are obviously wrong!) but i've tried my best....so i will leave the rest to you Ya Allah, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim...

Before that, i would like to say, ALHAMDULILLAH, that You helped me through the paper so that I didn't get blanked in any of the questions. Like i said, i don't know whether they are right but at least You guided me not to leave them blank...thank you Ya Allah!!! You are the only One who can make the easy seems easy & You are the only One who can make the difficult easy....

so please continue to guide me & my friends through our next papers Ya Allah......

we trust You, Ya Allah with all our hearts.....we know that You know whats best for us....

please Ya Allah, we beg You for our success in this exam Ya Allah, The Most Merciful & The Most Giving.....amin.....

all the best people!!!

2010-06-06T08:32:00.004+10:00

ALL THE BEST IN THE EXAMS!!

Usaha + Doa + Tawakkal = recipe for success!!

InsyaAllah, Allah is always there beside us......trust in Allah for He knows best.....

Here are 20 exam tips for muslim students:-

Praise be to Allaah and peace and blessings be upon the Messenger and upon his family and companions.

The Muslim student puts his trust in Allaah when facing the tests of this world, and he seeks His help whilst following the prescribed means, in accordance with the words of the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him): "The strong believer is better and is more beloved to Allaah than the weak believer, although both are good. Strive to attain that which will benefit you and seek the help of Allaah, and do not feel helpless." (Saheeh Muslim, hadeeth no. 2664)

Among those means are the following:

- Turning to Allaah by making du'aa' in any way that is prescribed in Islam, such as saying, "Rabbiy ishrah li sadri wa yassir li amri (O my Lord, expand my chest and make things easy for me)."

- Getting used to sleeping early and going to exams on time.

- Preparing all required or permitted equipment such as pens, rulers and setsquares, calculators and watches, because being well prepared helps one to answer questions.

- Reciting the du'aa' for leaving the house: "Bismillaah, tawakkaltu 'ala Allaah, wa laa hawla wa laa quwwata illa Billaah. Allaahumma inni a'oodhu bika an adilla aw udalla, aw azilla aw uzalla, aw azlima aw uzlama, aw ajhala aw yujhala 'alayya (In the name of Allaah, I put my trust in Allaah, and there is no strength and no power except with Allaah. O Allaah, I seek refuge with You lest I should stray or be led astray, lest I slip (commit a sin unintentionally) or be tripped, lest I oppress or be oppressed, lest I behave foolishly or be treated foolishly)." Do not forget to seek your parents' approval, for their du'aa' for you will be answered.

- Mention the name of Allaah before you start, for mentioning the name of Allaah is prescribed when beginning any permissible action; this brings blessing, and seeking the help of Allaah is one of the means of strength.

- Fear Allaah with regard to your classmates, and do not be affected by their anxiety or fear just before the exam, for anxiety is a contagious disease. Instead, make them feel optimistic by saying good words as prescribed in Islam. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) was optimistic when he heard the name of Suhayl (which means "easy") and he said: "Things have been made easy for you." He used to like to hear the words 'Yaa Raashid, when he went out for any purpose. So be optimistic that you and your brothers will pass this exam.

- Remembering Allaah (dhikr) dispels anxiety and tension. If something is too difficult for you, then pray to Allaah to make it easy for you. Whenever Shaykh al-Islam Ibn Taymiyah (may Allaah have mercy on him) found something too difficult to understand, he would say, "O You Who taught Ibraaheem, teach me; O You Who caused Sulaymaan to understand, cause me to understand."

- Choose a good place to sit during the exam, if you can. Keep your back straight, and sit on the chair in a healthy manner.

- Look over the exam first. Studies advise spending 10% of the exam time in reading the questions carefully, noting the important words and dividing one's time between the questions.

- Plan to answer the easy questions first, then the difficult ones. Whilst reading the questions, write notes and ideas which you can use in your answers later.

- Answer questions according to importance.

- Start by answering the easy questions which you know. Then move on to the questions which carry high marks, and leave till the end the questions to which you do not know the answers, or which you think will take a long time to produce an answer or which do not carry such high marks.

- Take your time to answer, for the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: "Deliberation is from Allaah and haste is from the Shaytaan." (A hasan hadeeth. Saheeh al-Jaami, 3011).

- Think carefully about the answer and choose the right answer when answering multiple-choice questions. Deal with them in the following manner. If you are sure that you have chosen the right answer, then beware of waswasah (insinuating whispers from the Shaytaan). If you are not sure, then start by eliminating the wrong or unlikely answers, then choose the correct answer based on what you think is most likely to be correct. If you guessed at a correct answer then do not change it unless you are sure that it is wrong – especially if you will lose marks for a wrong answer. Research indicates that the correct answer is usually that which the student thinks of first.

- In written exams, collect your thoughts before you start to answer. Write an outline for your answer with some words which will indicate the ideas which you want to discuss. Then number the ideas in the sequence in which you want to present them.

- Write the main points of your answer at the beginning of the line, because this is what the examiner is looking for, and he may not see what he is looking for if it is in the middle of the page and he is in a hurry.

- Devote 10% of the time for reviewing your answers. Take your time in reviewing, especially in mathematical problems and writing numbers. Resist the desire to hand in the exam papers quickly, and do not let the fact that some people are leaving early bother you. They may be among the people who have handed in their papers too early.

- If you discover after the exam that you answered some questions incorrectly, then take that as a lesson in the importance of being well prepared in the future, and not rushing to answer questions. Accept the will and decree of Allaah and do not fall prey to frustration and despair. Remember the hadeeth of the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him), "If anything befalls you, do not say, 'If only I had done such and such.' Rather say, 'Qadar Allaah wa maa sha'a kaan (the decree of Allaah and what He wills happened),' for saying 'if only' opens the door for the Shaytaan." (Saheeh Muslim, and the first part of this hadeeth was mentioned above).

- Note that cheating is haraam whether it is in foreign language tests or any other tests. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said, "Whoever cheats is not one of us." It is wrongdoing and it is a haraam means of attaining a degree or certificate, etc., that you have no right to. The consensus is that cheating is a kind of cooperation in sin and transgression. So do without that which is haraam, and Allaah will suffice you from His bounty. Reject all offers of haraam things that come to you from others. Whoever gives up a thing for the sake of Allaah, Allaah will compensate him with something better. You have to denounce and resist evil, and tell the authorities about any such thing that you see during the exam, or before or after it. This is not the forbidden kind of slander rather it is denouncing evil which is obligatory.

Advise those who buy or sell questions or post them on the Internet etc., or who prepare cheat notes. Tell them to fear Allaah, and tell them of the ruling on what they are doing and on the money they earn from that. Tell them that the time they are spending in preparing these haraam things, if they spent it in studying, or answering previous exams, or helping one another to understand the subject before the exam, that would be better for them than doing these haraam things.

- Remember what you have prepared for the Hereafter, and the questions of the examination in the grave, and how to be saved on the Day of Resurrection. Whoever is saved from the Fire and admitted to Paradise will indeed have succeeded.

We ask Allaah to make us succeed in this world and cause us to be among those who are victorious and saved in the Hereafter, for He is the All-Hearing Who answers prayer.

p/s: spill out your curiosity...

seeking your guidance...

2010-06-03T16:53:00.005+10:00

Ya Allah, we are trying to put our best effort in this,

but only You can help us go through this with ease,

please help these humble servants of Yours, Ya Rahman, Ya Rahim...

help us go through this with the intention only to seek Your blessings,

for we are weak & powerless compared to You, Ya Rabbi,

we are begging for Your forgiveness and guidance,

to overcome this part of our life obstacles,

for You are The Most Powerful & The Only One we can turn to....amin...

p/s: not that i like answering questions that much, but just to let out any of your curiosity, you can try asking me any questions but i can't promise that i will answer all though...nevertheless, i'll try my best... http://www.formspring.me/izzatnadz

happy MAK's day!!!

2010-05-08T21:33:00.006+10:00

"M" is for the million things she gave me,

"O" means only that she's growing old,

"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,

"H" is for her heart of purest gold;

"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,

"R" means right, and right she'll always be,

Put them all together, they spell

"MOTHER,"

A word that means the world to me.

God made a wonderful mother,

A mother who never grows old;

He made her smile of the sunshine,

And He moulded her heart of pure gold;

In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,

In her cheeks fair roses you see;

God made a wonderful mother,

And He gave that dear mother to me

I miss you so much,

your laugh, your smile, your touch.

You always brightened my days

with all the smiles you sent my way.

I need you as my angel

to always be at my side.

I need you as my angel

to give me peace of mind.

I like to think your near to me

to know that you are there.

Even though I can not see you,

I feel that you are near.

Please do not forget me mom,

for you are always in my heart,

my thoughts and prayers.

I love you.

If I could give you diamonds

for each tear you cried for me.

if I could five you sapphires

for each truth you've helped me see.

If I could give you rubies

for the heartache that you've known

If I could give you pearls

for the wisdom that you've shown.

Then you'll have a treasure, mother,

that would mount up to the skies

That would almost match

the sparkle in your kind and loving eyes.

But I have no pearls, no diamonds,

As I'm sure you're well aware

So I'll give you gifts more precious

My devotion, love and care.

As I look back on my life

I find myself wondering...

Did I remember to thank you

for all that you have done for me?

For all of the times you were by my side

to help me celebrate my successes

and accept my defeats?

Or for teaching me the value of hard work,

good judgement, courage, and honesty?

I wonder if I've ever thanked you

for the simple things...

The laughter, smiles, and quiet times we've shared?

If I have forgotten to express my gratitude

For any of these things,

I am thanking you now...

and I am hoping that you've known all along,

how very much you are loved and appreciated.

Mak,

I would copy & paste thousands even millions

of mother's day poems for you,

just to show you,

my gratitude, appreciation and love

towards you.....

sorry for all my wrongdoings,

and thank you so very much for all you have done for me....

for you are,

my one and only MAK....

I LOVE YOU MAK!!!

dedicated to you both....

2010-05-01T00:36:00.001+10:00

when any of us was born,

though it was difficult for you both,

you both would smile and maybe cry of joy for Allah's gift.

when any of us made you stayed in hospital after your C-section for a whole month,

though it troubled you both,

you both endured it whole-heartedly and was just grateful that your child was born healthy.

when any of us was naughty,

though in your hearts you felt sad seeing your child crying,

you both had to punish us to discipline us.

when any of us got sick, no matter from fever, appendicectomy or super bad food poisoning,

though sometimes you were sick as well,

you both would be by our side taking care of us throughout the night.

when any of us were schooling,

though you were super tired from hospital calls at night or handling household matters,

you both would wake up early in the morning to get us ready and send us to school.

when any of us was going to have an exam,

though you had lots of other matter to deal with,

you both were there to motivate us into studying.

when any of us was on exam day,

though you were busy,

you both would find time to pray for us at home or the mosque.

when any of us had tuition,

though you were exhausted,

you both would still go back and forth sending and picking us up.

when any of us was getting result on that day,

though you were nervous yourself,

you both would tell us that it would all be fine to calm us down.

when any of us fail in anything,

though you were sad deep down inside,

you both would not show even the slightest bit of disappointment and say it's not the end of the world.

when any of us achieved anything,

though you noticed that we did not thank you,

you both would just smile and say 'we are happy for you child'.

when any of us is having our birthday,

though you weren't given present during yours,

you both would go all the trouble to find us the best presents.

when any of us went to boarding school,

though you were sad that your child would apart from you,

you both would support, advice and sent us with open heart and prayers in your heart.

when any of us was going abroad for studies,

though you would only get to see us just once a year,

you both would go through all the trouble preparing and sending us off and feeling a lifetime worth of proud for us.

when any of us needed money,

though you worked hard to earn and save it,

you both would just agree and quickly run to the bank to send it straight away.

when any of us were craving for any food from overseas,

though you were busy,

you both would run to shops buying the food and the post office to post a whole box with variety of food.

when any of us wanted to buy a car,

though it was expensive,

you would agree to support us financially if that was what we really want.

when any of us had troubles in our lives,

though you already gave us lots of advices on the matter,

you both would the first ones running and coming to our rescue.

despite all the things you both have done for us,

you never do them asking for something in return,

all you ever hope for was our HAPPINESS....

you are our MAK & ABAH....

MAK & ABAH,

from the bottom of our hearts

thank you, thank you, thank you....

we don't know what have we done in our lives,

to deserve you both,

you are our inspiration to show that

love can be unconditional........

we realize now that with all you both have done,

though we might use to think that some was bad for us,

adding up with your tender loving care,

and sincere, warm hearts,

are the recipe to what we are today....

Ya Allah, my one and only Rabb,

please bestow upon them your forgiveness, love & happiness,

for their forgiveness, love & happiness towards us, amin....

iman naik & turun...

2010-04-13T23:51:00.002+10:00

alhamdulillah, i came across this artikel from APIS's website and LOVING it!!! moga dapat jadi pedoman to all reading it....

MENURUNNYA KEIMANAN ITU, BUKAN ALASAN UNTUK BERSEDIHAN...

Iman sifatnya Yazid wa yanqus. Yazid berasal dari perkataan zada bermaksud tambah. Yanqus berasal dari perkataan Naqasa bermaksud berkurang. Iman itu sifatnya bertambah dan berkurang, naik dan turun.

Itulah dia resminya kita. Hamba Allah SWT.

Ada masa terjatuh juga. Ada masa tersungkur juga.

Dan bila jatuh dan tersungkur itu, jiwa akan sedih meronta-ronta.

“Kenapa begini? Kenapa begini?” Kita akan tertanya-tanya. Seakan-akan kita merasakan betapa amal kebaikan kita tidak bermakna. Amal, amal, amal kemudian berdosa semula. Buat baik, buat baik, buat baik, nanti tersungkur juga.

Akhirnya kita memilih untuk meninggalkan kebaikan. Katanya sudah tiada harapan.

Sebenarnya, kita tidak mengerti bahawa, di dalam kejatuhan iman itu sendiri, ada hikmah besar yang tersembunyi.

Orang-orang yang beriman bukan sempurna

Orang yang beriman itu tidak sempurna. Walaupun dia beriman kepada Allah SWT, tetap ada waktunya dia akan tersungkur jatuh melakukan kesilapan. Adakala kesilapannya besar, adakala kesilapannya kecil. Hatta orang-orang yang alim dan kelihatan seperti malaikat juga ada waktu-waktu kurangnya. Tinggal terzahir atau tidak sahaja.

Ini dibuktikan dengan kisah Abu Dzar RA dan Bilal bin Rabah RA. Apabila satu ketika, Abu Dzar RA memanggil Bilal: “Hoi Anak Hitam” dan kemudian Rasulullah SAW menegur: “Wahai Abu Dzar, sesungguhnya pada dirimu masih ada jahiliyyah”

Ya. Ada kalanya kita dah rasa stabil, rasa keimanan kita meninggi, ada kalanya kita akan terleka dan terlalai. Lantas alpa menolak kita ke gaung kesilapan.

Dan ketahuilah, kesilapan itu sendiri adalah satu ujian.

Dan di dalam ujian itu ada hikmah yang besar daripada Ar-Rahman.

Hikmah satu kejatuhan

Ada kata-kata hikmah berbunyi:

“Hanya si buta mengetahui nikmatnya melihat, hanya si mati mengetahui nikmatnya kehidupan”

Di sinilah tersembunyinya hikmah yang besar mengapa Allah SWT menjadikan keimanan manusia itu berbentuk naik dan turun.

Supaya manusia belajar menghargai keimanan mereka.

Manusia yang telah menyentuh kelazatan iman, apabila mereka tersasar dari landasan keimanan itu, mereka akan rasa kekosongan, rasa kekurangan. Di sinilah bagi yang jiwanya sensitif, akan bangkit segera memperbaiki diri. Dan apabila mereka bangkit, mereka akan bangkit dengan lebih tinggi dari sebelum kejatuhan mereka.

Allah mencipta kitaran Iman sedemikian rupa, agar yang terbaik mampu dihasilkan.

Sebab itu, bumi ini tidak diberikan kepada malaikat untuk mentadbirnya. Tetapi Allah berikan kepada manusia yang pasti akan melakukan kesilapan, tertarik-tarik antara kebaikan dan kefasadan untuk metadbirnya.

Hal ini kerana, hanya yang pernah jatuh, mengetahui kepentingan berada di tempat yang tinggi. Justeru, manusia yang beriman apabila mereka jatuh, mereka akan rasa sebahagian besar kenikmatan hidup mereka tertarik keluar. Di sini, Allah menguji mereka, Allah menapis mereka.

Siapakah antara hamba Allah yang terbaik dalam melangkahi ujian ini?

Dan orang yang benar keimanannya akan bangkit. Bergerak. Memperbaiki diri dan meningkat lebih tinggi.

Hanya orang yang keimanannya palsu, akan terus tunduk dan berputus asa. Jatuh lebih ke bawah dari yang sebelumnya.

Lihatlah Mereka itu

Kembali kepada kisah Abu Dzar, apabila dia ditegur oleh Rasulullah SAW tadi, dia bingkas meletakkan wajahnya ke tanah. Menjerit meminta Bilal memijaknya. Hatinya gentar dengan keimanannya yang menurun. Lantas bergerak memperbaiki dirinya. Dan kita mengetahui bahawa Abu Dzar adalah antara sahabat termulia di sisi Rasulullah SAW.

Lihatlah pula kepada Ka’ab bin Malik, apabila beliau terleka hingga meninggalkan Peperangan Tabuk. Lantas dia sedar akan kesilapannya, tidak pula dia putus asa untuk menjadi baik apabila Rasulullah menghukumnya. Bahkan dia menjadi manusia yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya, hingga Allah menurunkan ayat Al-Quran secara terus mengampunkannya.

Lihatlah pula kepada Umar Al-Khattab, dia pada suatu hari membawa Taurat untuk dijadikan rujukan dan Rasulullah SAW marah kepadanya. Selepas itu lihatlah Umar bagaimana dia bergerak menjadi seorang yang sangat tegas atas Al-Quran dan Sunnah. Menjadi lebih baik dari sebelumnya.

Lihatlah pula kepada Handzalah dan Abu Bakr RA, apabila mereka merasakan diri mereka telah terlalai dari mengingati Allah SWT, lantas mengumumkan bahawa diri mereka telah menjadi munafiq dan menangis-nangis kecewa. Ditegur oleh Rasulullah SAW bahawa perkara itu adalah biasa jika ianya tidak berpanjangan. Dan lihatlah kemudiannya di mana tempat mereka di dalam keimanan. Naik lebih tinggi dari sebelumnya.

Oh, apakah orang-orang yang jatuh itu tidak melihat, bahawa kejatuhan mereka itu hakikatnya adalah pengajaran halus daripada Allah SWT?

Penutup: Bila jatuh, jangan kecewa. Lekas naik semula jangan banyak bicara

Justeru, bila jatuh, bila melakukan kesilapan, bila melakukan dosa, jangan pula rasa tersangat kecewa hingga tiada harapan langsung untuk kita.

Lihatlah betapa hakikatnya, kejatuhan itu adalah untuk mengajar diri kita, mendidik jiwa kita, agar lebih menghargai keimanan kita, menghargai hubungan kita dengan Allah SWT.

Kejatuhan itu sendiri, adalah salah satu bentuk kasih sayang Allah SWT kepada hamba-hamba-Nya untuk memberikan peluang kepada mereka tertingkat dengan lebih tinggi lagi.

Maka jangan banyak bicara, jangan berduka terlalu lama, bangkitlah dengan mengambil pengajaran apabila jatuh itu.

Biar bangkit lebih tinggi dari kebangkitan sebelumnya.

SALAM MAULIDUR RASUL...

2010-02-26T15:54:00.004+11:00

10 positive thing for today....

2010-02-20T19:17:00.002+11:00

1. still alive & a muslim (with iman alhamdulillah)

2. ExploRace for the juniors went very well....super fun

3. had great barbeque for lunch in Kak Wardiah's house.....nyum2x...

4. dpt mkn pasta sedap made by Hani & Farah......

5. met Kak Yani after such a long summer break...miss her lots!!!

6. met a new friend, Lana, architecture student.......

7. complimented as being radiant & kulit 'ketat' by seniors.....thanx to ProActive!!!!

8. still have blood running down my veins for the mosquitoes to suck them out......

9. got to eat my beloved dark chocolates & reading the sweet messages written on the wrapper...

10. had SHARING IS CARING session with seniors...thanx everyone!!!

p/s: trying my best to be more appreciative towards what is happening in my everyday life....always felt that i haven't been thankful enough to Allah for what He has bestowed upon me throughout my life for more than 21 years......

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

smile again & again....& again

2010-01-20T03:22:00.001+11:00

a group of girls from Malaysia went for a holiday together in Singapore after almost 2 years of not seeing each other.....within the one day trip, there was this funny conversation (to anyone who understands it, that is)......

Girl 1: the 'mat salleh' guy smiled at me just now....(muke penoh dgn ke-perasan-nan)
Girl 2: ye ke? what's with the the english speaking?
Girl 1: oh well, i'm from ENGLAND...
Girl 2: hahahahahahahha....perasan siot...
Girl 1: so i smiled again....(dgn confident)
Girl 2: smiled again??? bkn 'smiled back' ke??
Girl 1: sorry, i'm from FRANCE (tetibe je)

mungkin x lawak ble bace je.....but if korg ade kt tmpt kejadian, it was totally hilarious with all the facial expression n stuff.....

p/s: thanx girls for such a wonderful trip!!! it was simply an unforgettable journey...cant wait to do this again when we are 41.....(yapoo jgn nk buat lawak bangang psl walking distance dh ye???)

al-fatihah.....

2010-01-01T22:47:00.000+11:00

who knew....the same time aku tgh seronok shopping, my dearest friend, Hidayati Hassan telah menghembuskan nafasnya yg terakhir......Allah lebih menyayangimu wahai sahabatku....to all chesco o2o6, i'm dedicating this song as a tribute to her.....insyaAllah, she will be always alive in our heart within our memories.....

Telah tiba saat waktu kau tinggalkan kami
Kerana takdir Yang Maha Esa telah menetapkan
Sedih rasanya hati ini bila mengenangkan
Kau sahabatku kau teman sejati

Tulus ikhlasmu luhur budimu
Bagai tiada pengganti
Senyum tawamu juga katamu
Menghiburkan kami
Memori indah kita bersama
Terus bersemadi
Kau sahabatku kau teman sejati

Sudah ditakdirkan kau pergi dulu
Di saat kau masih diperlukan
Tuhan lebih menyayangi dirimu
Ku pasrah di atas kehendak Yang Esa

Ya Allah
Tempatkannya di tempat yang mulia
Tempat yang diKau janjikan nikmat
Untuk hambaMu

Sahabatku
Akan kuteruskan perjuangan ini
Walau kutahu kau tiada di sisi

Perjuangan kita masih jauh beribu batu
Selagi roh masih di jasad hidup diteruskan
Sedih rasa hati ini mengenangkan dikau
Bagai semalam kau bersama kami

Moga amanlah dan bahgia dikau di sana
Setangkai doa juga Fatihah terus kukirimkan
Moga di sana kau bersama para solihin
Kau sahabatku kau teman sejati

Telah tiba saat waktu kau tinggalkan kami
Kerana takdir Yang Maha Esa telah menetapkan
Sedih rasanya hati ini bila mengenangkan
Kau sahabatku kau teman sejati

p/s: you will always be remembered in my heart....al-fatihah.....

welcome 2010....

2010-01-01T22:40:00.000+11:00

just wanna share something i read from the newspaper today....loved every word....

Some people hate
Some people love

Some people are procrastinators
Some people act now

Some people love to point fingers
Some people love to extend their hands

Some people question every answer
Some people have an answer to every question

Some people hate to lose an argument
Some people love to win hearts

Some people want to change
Some people want to be the change

Some people are blind except to their own colour
Some people are colour blind

Some people are proud to belong to their race
Some people take pride in belonging to the human race

This New Year, it is not about who is perfect and who is not. It is about sharing One Legacy & One Destiny. Because to build a great nation we must learn to see the perfections in the imperfections....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

lets make this year better than last year....lets start new good habits rather than keeping old bad habits......

bersangka baik jom!!!

2009-11-20T02:16:00.005+11:00

Tips from Syeikh Abdulkadir Al Jailani:-

Jika engkau bertemu dengan seseorang, maka yakinilah bahawa dia lebih baik darimu. Ucapkan dalam hatimu : “Mungkin kedudukannya di sisi Allah jauh lebih baik dan lebih tinggi dariku”.
(instead, slalu je pikir cam ne nak rase superior dr org tuh...ade je rase nak compare, pe yg kite lg better....kalo aku plak, pantang org x senyum blk kalo aku senyum kt org tuh, tros cop org tuh belagak....tp ble pikir blk, byk je org yg aku knal have a first impression of aku ni belagak n garang....ASTAGHFIRULLAH)

Jika bertemu anak kecil, maka ucapkanlah (dalam hatimu) : “Anak ini belum bermaksiat kepada Allah, sedangkan diriku telah banyak bermaksiat kepadaNya. Tentu anak ini jauh lebih baik dariku”..
(ni x, xde pikir pape pon ble jumpe budak2....just rase a sense of authority over them...rase berkuase....kalo aku jadi nanny diorg, aku asyik buli diorg je....ASTAGHFIRULLAH)

Jika bertemu orang tua, maka ucapkanlah (dalam hatimu): “Dia telah beribadah kepada Allah jauh lebih lama dariku, tentu dia lebih baik dariku.”
(aku respect org tue, but now there is more to think about ble jumpe diorg, muhasabah diri.....ASTAGHFIRULLAH)

Jika bertemu dengan seorang yang berilmu, maka ucapkanlah (dalam hatimu): “Orang ini memperoleh kurnia yang tidak akan kuperolehi, mencapai kedudukan yang tidak akan pernah kucapai, mengetahui apa yang tidak kuketahui dan dia mengamalkan ilmunya, tentu dia lebih baik dariku.”
(ni x, jeles je rase kalo ade org tau lebih...tros rase inferior...then sure rase org tuh kedekut ilmu...kalo x pon, x rase pon nk study ke ngan org tuh, sbb takot rase lg inferior ble org tuh tau lebih.......ASTAGHFIRULLAH)

Jika bertemu dengan seorang yang jahil, maka katakanlah (dalam hatimu) : “Orang ini bermaksiat kepada Allah kerana dia jahil (tidak tahu), sedangkan aku bermaksiat kepadaNya padahal aku mengetahui akibatnya. Dan aku tidak tahu bagaimana akhir umurku dan umurnya kelak. Dia tentu lebih baik dariku.”
(ni lagi satu...kalo jumpe org cam nih, sure tros jd judgemental.....tros label org tuh jahat....we have to hate the sin, not the sinner....muhasabah diri....ASTAGHFIRULLAH)

Jika bertemu dengan orang kafir, maka katakanlah (dalam hatimu) : “Aku tidak tahu bagaimana keadaannya kelak, mungkin di akhir usianya dia memeluk Islam dan beramal soleh. Dan mungkin boleh jadi di akhir usia diriku kufur dan berbuat buruk…
(yang ni pon, aku slalu je pikir dlm kapla otak aku nih kalo any of them lalu depan aku yang diorg nih dh confirm tiket masok neraka....budget aku nih baek sgt la bleh masok syurga??? hish....trok btol aku nih....x penah pikir possibility diorg masok Islam.....kdg2 lupe yang Allah yang tentukan everything....ASTAGHFIRULLAH)

p/s: just reading about this when i realized that i have been a bad person...always judging people....but alhamdulillah, coming across this article made me realize that i must always be humble & have good thoughts about other people.......ntah la, kdg2 org buat salah sket, tros masok bad list aku, then forever i'll cop org tuh jahat.....ble org tuh buat baik kt aku pon, aku still pikir cam die fake gle.....astaghfirullah.....baru la tersedar, what kind of a person i've grown up to be....but xpe, its not to late to change & be a better person........huhu...pe bende la aku merepek pepagi bute nih....

the war has begun.....

2009-11-10T14:18:00.003+11:00

oh my GOD!!!!
esok stat exam........sungguh cuak.....
tp xpe ijat.....just remember USAHA+DOA+TAWAKKAL.....
insyaAllah, Allah is always there for you......
paling penting kene tenang......
kalo tenang, insyaAllah, everything in ur head will flow out nicely.......

please, please, please pray for me......
with ur prayers, i know i'll do just fine......

p/s: to all other medic students especially newie students, all da best....my prayer accompanies all of you...

always be there.....

2009-11-04T17:02:00.002+11:00

when the time gets hard,
and there is no where to turn,
as He promised...He will always be there........
to bless us with His love & His mercy,
because as He promised.....He will always be there........
He is always watching us, guiding us,
and He knows what is in our little hearts,
so when you lose your way,
to ALLAH you should turn,
as He promised...He will ALWAYS be there.............

Nabi s.a.w bersabda: "Tidak ada sesuatu yang menimpa seseorang Islam sama ada kepenatan, kesakitan, kesusahan memikirkan perkara yang akan datang, kedukaan, sesuatu yang menyakiti, atau kesusahan mengingatkan apa yang telah berlaku - sehinggakan tikaman duri yang mencucuknya - melainkan Allah hapuskan dengan sebabnya, sebahagian dari dosa-dosanya." (Abu Sa'id al-Khudri & Abu Hurairah r.a)

so people, don't be stress with this coming exam (saying this to myself as well)....
just do the best, pray hard, & leave the rest to Allah.....
whatever that has been decided for us would be for our best interest.....
believe in Allah......
i won't say good luck for your exams.....cause luck would bring us nowhere.....
only Allah has the power to all.....just remember that you are all in my prayers......
Bit taufiq wan najah.....last but not least......

'USAHA, DOA & TAWAKAL'

Life....

2009-10-26T11:43:00.002+11:00

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks
I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I'm not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it...well, you're actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

but alhamdulillah, ALLAH is always there to guide us.....
just trust Him & you will be fine....
no worries MATE!!!

just for you

2009-10-05T22:34:00.002+11:00

Thank You
For simply being there
In the cloudy days
In the sunny days
Thank You
For sharing your joy
And pain with me
For showing me
That I’m so special
That my contribution count
Through our friendship I have grown as a person
And I hope you have too...
Thank You… Thank You… Thank You…
Just For You
Thank You
For simply being my friend
For the special memories
We share together now
For the never ending support
You always give me
My dearest friend
I will always love you
I can’t tell you how much
That you mean to me
I pray for our everlasting friendship
Never ever say goodbye to yesterday
Because yesterday was so special and wonderful
And I hope tomorrow will be better
Thank You… For Everything…

p/s: dearest ashley...missing u lots right now....would be great if u were here....

alhamdulillah....

2009-10-04T10:26:00.002+11:00

give thanks to ALLAH,
for the moon & the stars,
praise Him all day for what IS & what WAS,
take hold if your IMAN,
don't give in to SYAITAN,
you who belive,
please give thanks to ALLAH...

alhamdulillah...
alhamdulillah...
alhamdulillah...

insyaAllah....

2009-09-29T20:57:00.003+10:00

everytime
you feel like you cannot go on,
you feel so lost then
that you are so alone,
all you see is night
and darkness all around,
you feel so helpless,
you can't see which way to go
don't despair
and never lose hope,
cause ALLAH is always by your side....

insyaAllah......
you will find your way.....

Eid Mubarak!!!

2009-09-21T20:01:00.003+10:00

This is my first year celebrating aidilfitri without my family by my side....terpikir jugak around a few days before raye whether i would cry my eyes out because of that....tp tgk2 x langsong....konon tough la nih....hahahahaha...not really....it was just that i called my family a lot siap 3G lagik.....so still rase they are very near....what is technology for kan??? tp ade additional reason gak....
again, i feel very grateful & blessed that Allah takdirkan bumi Newcastle for me.... i get to meet a lot (& i mean A LOT) of wonderful+awesome people....this people is another reason why i didn't feel that sad on raya.....they made me feel that i'm not alone....and they treat me just like their own family member....it showed me that i may not have my blood-related family but i have another family here through our hearts....

let me ckp psl ramadhan dulu....mase kt malaysia dulu, slalu rase ramadhan ni cam biase je....xde la x special but i don't have the urge to strive for Allah's blessings & forgiveness though i know the importance....tp since ade kt cni, maybe because of not having to live in muslim-majority country, baru rase nmpk the REAL ISLAM....tp xde la nmpk secare tetibe je....of course i had some help from the AMAZING SISTERS kt cni....all i can say is, i hope that sume amalan i made this ramadhan is accepted by Allah....

though i miss my mum's great cooking during raye (plus mase x raya pon), and rindu jugak nak dapat duet raye from pak+mak sedare sume, i'm glad that i have the chance to celebrate raya here....with such amazing people by my side, raya kali ni x rasa ada kekurangan pon....thanks to all...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!!
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!!!

happy 20th birthday, ILIA!!!

2009-08-24T21:21:00.004+10:00

hahahahahaha......at last, ilia is now officially 20!!!! padan muke!!! asyik kitorg je yg die kutuk dh tue.....join da club mate!!! just know dat u r no longer a TEENAGER!!! huhu....u r now a TWENTY-ager.....i'm loving this so much....

da celebration was a success....we brought her out to an indian restaurant called RAJ'S CORNER for bukak pose.....but the climax was when we BLINDFOLDED her and brought her to the beach where we lit some candles around a piece of cake with a musical candle on top of it.....we had great fun......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILIA!!!

May Allah bless u with all the happiness in this world and the hereafter....thanx for being such a great friend and 'ex-girlfriend'.....thanx gak for being such a great housemate for the past 7 months and insyaAllah for the next 4 years and 4 months.....may Allah bless our friendship till da day we die.....

p/s: bangge gle ilia skrg dh terer gle masak....jgn maen2...sumpah aku kagum....

bulan yang mulia...

2009-08-19T21:31:00.002+10:00

sempena bulan Ramadhan yang nk sampai nih, nak tanam beberapa azam baru utk melengkapkan bulan yang penuh berkat ni...hopefully, what i'm going to do will stay within me for the rest of my life...insyaAllah....Ya Allah, berikanlah hambaMu kekuatan dan kesungguhan utk mengubah diri supaya menjadi hambaMu yang lebih baik dari hari ini.....

1. read Al-Quran more often...bkn mase middle of maghrib & isyak je.....
2. banyakkan berzikir....
3. banyakkan berselawat...
4. make sure terawih every night...hari yang boleh je la kan...since masjid quite far...
5. might be a bit weird but i want to try & change my attire...insyaAllah...
6. nak jemaah subuh, maghrib, isyak, terawih & witir with housemates....hwaiting!!!
7. nak sahur same2 ngan housemates....rase sunyi la mkn sorg2...
8. elakkan diri dari perkara2 lagha...cam tgk cite korea or anime excessively....
9. try to finish up reading terjemahan Al-Quran...
10. have better attitude...cam krg moody...or more thankful to Allah...

but before all that happening, i would like to wish my family and all my muslim friends,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!!!

semoga segala amalan kita dalam bulan mulia ini akan diredai & diberkati Allah dan membuahkan kebaikan kepada kita either in this life or the hereafter....
and also to ABAH, MAK, NINI, ABG WAN, ABG LAN, the rest of the family and all my dearest friends, i want to give my greatest apologies for any single mistake i made to any of you and please pray for my well-being throughout Ramadhan....

a tribute to the greatest people....

2009-08-14T17:27:00.005+10:00

...the proudest moment...

as i sat in my room today after finishing my tutorial, i was drawn into old memories of my dearest of friends.....these are the stories of great friends whom i really love and cherish till the day i die....

nisa yapoo: hurm....ble kenal ko eh??? hahahaha......aku rase mase form 1, aku just kenal ko as adik penolong ketua pengawas....name ko pon aku x tau....nmpk je ko, dlm ati aku, 'eh, adik kak hazimah'......mase form 2 la mulenye detik persahabatan kite....ko la yg ajak aku masok video competition ngan ris n puzab....honestly, awal2, mmg aku menyumpah2 ko sbb masokkn aku dlm bende yg same ngan puzab....hahahaha....but thanx my dear friend for doing so....mungkin Allah yg bagi ko ilham utk buat cm tuh....alhamdulillah....tp aku rase kite mule lg rapat mase form 4 time tfnet....hehehehe....mase tuh la kite dipsgkn bersame dgn panggilan yapoo...hehehe...(ade lg x rantai yg aku kasi ko??)....then ko pg intec n aku plak taylor's...tp friendship kite x putus....ko slalu je dtg e-tiara (kdg2 kerane swimming pool-nye) n kite borak2 smpi mlm....aku gak yg x penah pg tmpt ko...sori yapoo....bkn sengaje....tp mmg sengaje pon...hahahaha...xde ah...lwk je...kite study sesame pon ade....umah ko x yah kate ah, brape kali ntah aku nyemak kt ctu....hehehhehe....ko siap masak utk aku lg....bagoss2...bleh jd isteri mithali...

ris ayamak: yg nih, mane nk mule cite pon xtau....mase form 1, mmg x knal langsong ah....hahahaha....lg2 plak 1J ngan 1F kan cm enemies....mase form 2, same gak ngan nisa, mule gak friendship kite mase masok video competition tuh same2....though idea video ala2 fred flinstone yg nk buat ape tah pakai like some sort of straw tuh x menang smpi mane2 pon....kite menang sth else...we won ourselves new bonding...new friendship......then mase tfnet, ko la secretary aku yg PALING CEKAP....sumpah aku kagum!!! keje aku sign je surat NTAH PAPE yg ko buat.....ko mmg memudahkn idop aku....ko jugak la manusia PERTAMA yg aku jumpe allergic ngan AYAM.....pastu mase form 5, kite buat group ape eh?? group save budget ke?? so, kite pg gak supper everynite sbb nk elak pengeluaran fulus kt koop....then kite kt taylor's same2..though masing2 ade kwn baru, kite still ade friendship kite...aku pg umah ko utk menyemak same cm ko menyemak kt umah aku...gile DEMANDING mase kt umah aku...nk milo la, x ske cocopops la, nk tido atas katil la, nk sluar la, towel la, etc.....then mase antr ko kt airport ke US, ko nanges la yg caused me to cry as well...kambeng tol ko nih...pnat aku thn....

puzab jabi: hahahaha.....bdk ni byk aku bleh cite....perkenalan kitorg la yg plg unik....hahahaha....sbb kisah kitorg ni cm org slalu kate 'x knal make x cinta'....sbb kitorg mule as WORST OF ENEMIES...haha....mase form 1, ble aku senyum kt die, die buat 'dek' je kt aku...mmg aku pantang org cm tuh...then ade gak kes 'BURUNG MATI'...itu lg lawak...tp bleh kate mmg x nmpk potential utk jd kwn ah mase tuh...ble tau dpt klas same utk form 2, mmg aku kutuk gle ah..org laen ejek aku, 'Ijat, sure lepas nih ko jd 'best' friend puzab'..aku jawab, 'JANGAN HARAP!!' (dengan nada tinggi..cm novel plak)...skali mmg masin mulut diorg...stat form 2, since the video comp, kitorg stat jd baek...knal diri masing2..baru la tau minah nih cm ne...mase tfnet, ko jd plak PENGURUS KEWANGAN aku...mmg tabik sspppriiinnnggg ah...tgk ko ngan sume resit2 ngan akaun2 yg membiolkn kapla otak aku kalo aku kt tmpt ko...adik2 kite NINI & NONI...hahaha...teringat plak aku mase ko ingat mak ko dentist tuh...ingat x?? then kite deskmate mase form 5...ko gak yg ske maen lagu2 'antique' ulang berjuta kali lemon smpi aku rase nk muntah dgr...

myra keding: ni cucu aku...hehehehe...yg kepeng lg keding....bdk nih aku btol2 knal mase tfnet kot...ko minat gle RAIN dulu....(name saye RRRRRAIN..iklan shampoo head&shoulders) ko la yg knalkn aku pade dunie korea...hahaha...gle thankful kt ko....ko knalkn kt aku cite FULLHOUSE yg gle menarik...smpi x tido mlm dok nk abeskn cite tuh nye pasal...ko ajar aku korean language cm...wang2 sakaji...hahaha...yg x elok gak aku pickup cepat...hehehehe....ko la cucuku yg glamourous gitu....hahahaha....

fyruz zmangga: hurm...ni awal2, knal gitu2 je la....aku tau die nih mmg pelawak gak ah....n sbb aku tau die cm kreatif, aku pon kutip la die utk masok tfnet gak....hahahahaha....jd PENGURUS PEMASARAN....merangkap 2nd CEOt bak kate angan2 die....mase tfnet ah, bonding kite jd maken kuat...teringat tingkap abuji yg kite slalu langkah tuh...hehehe....yg dh bengkok tuh....tp aku x kate ko yg buat....(hehe)...ko gak ah yg slalu gle gaduh ngan abuji...gaduh2 manje gitu...ko mmg aku anggap cm Apek Senario personal aku.....asyik buat aku gelak je....ooo...x lupe gak...ko juge aka KETUA PLASTIK ITAM....rajin tol kemas comp lab....

gent jangayam: minah nih pon aku rapat sbb tfnet....bdk ni aku amek sbb die kreatif gak...aku sgt perlukn org2 kreatif dlm syarikat aku....hehehe...itu namenye strategi...tp ilham Allah utk jadikn ko bdk tfnet sbb kreativiti ko juge la yg mewujudkn ukhwah antare kite....ko pon jadi cucu aku gak....bunyi cm aku nih org tue la plak...

nak cerite lagi detail tp nanti aku yakin pjg berjela2....xpe..ble rajen aku buat tribute part 2 plak....the main purpose aku buat post nih just nak kate:

thanx for being my greatest of friends...having u girls in my life has really changed me....u girls are a part of me....i thank Allah each day for giving me the opportunity to meet u girls...the journey we had together, no matter sweet or bitter, was a journey that i will never regret and cherish always....no matter where we r now, i'm sure that our friendship will never end....i'll always be there for u just like u were always with me through those times....may Allah bless all of you with greatness and happiness always.....amin....

I MISS YOU GIRLS!!!

change....

2009-08-08T00:33:00.002+10:00

i'm in the phase of trying to change into a better me, be it a muslim, daughter or student.
so bear with me for not updating my blog recently. maybe the contents of my blog will change as well as i evolve through this phase. pray for me. i know Allah is always there with me throughout my joy and pain.

as a muslim: i'm trying to deepen my knowledge on Islam. i do not want to be a muslim who just follows everything blindly just because everybody around me does it. i want to really understand what i'm doing so that everything i do is out of sincerity and honesty only for Allah.....

as a daughter: i want to always pray for my parents and care for them in any way i could as long as they are alive and are always there for me. i want to make them proud of me though i know they already are. i want to sink in everything they had taught me and let them know that i'm grateful that Allah sent them to me as my parents

as a student: i want to stop my habit as a 'last-minute studying' kind of person. i have to take my studies a little more seriously now. it is no more only for exams. i will have lives of human beings being jeopardized if ever i make mistakes. plus, i must always make my intention of studying is always for Allah and to get His blessings.

as a person: i have to stop my bad temper. i have to start using nice words. i want to show people that i do not have stoned heart. i can love and receive love. i want to help others. i want to stop being selfish at times.

i'm not quite sure what i'm blabbering about right now. is just that i got so much in my head at the moment. whatever it is, what i have learnt through the hard way is that,

'Allah does not give challenges to His servants that they cannot handle.....'

sydney with FAMILY!!!

2009-07-14T17:59:00.005+10:00

you read it right....i spent a week of my holidays in sydney with my ohana who came all the way from malaysia....i'm so touched....and when i say family, it really means the whole family as in together with my two BIG brothers and my new-family-member-or-kakak-ipar, Kak Baey......i had COOLNESS fun.....maybe partly because i missed them so much....hahahahahha.....a picture is worth a thousand words....so here are a few pictures to contribute to my word count for this entry....hahahahhahaha.....COOLNESS!!!! I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!

changes....

2009-06-29T18:24:00.002+10:00

during exam.....

after exam.....

exam has ended.....during exam, i just can't wait for the holidays....but only after a few days of holidays, i feel very bored.....i mean SERIOUSLY BORED......i had to cancel my trip to Melbourne due to the swine flu thingy....what a coincidence.....why must this swine flu cases rise up when its about time for me to go there??? well, there must be a reason behind it i guess....so, i set up a few goals for me to achieve in the holidays....they include:
1) find a car....2ndhand car due to $$$ in my bank account....hahaha (DONE!!!)
2) make my own ROTI CANAI (DONE!!!)
3) making CHICKEN MUSHROOM PIE.....???? (soon....)

wait for my next post on our search of ENCIK CAR....what is that is u ask...its our car's name.....u might think dat it is lame but we love it!!! so, WHATEVER!!!! the car is such COOLNESS....

exam no more around the corner....

2009-06-09T22:32:00.003+10:00

its right beside me....looking at me straight in the face.....hhahahahahaha.....
the only word that can haunt me for the rest of my life no matter how many times i have gone through with it....the one and only.....

EXAM!!!

anyways, i got lots more to read and cover for this exam....so no time to plan for a long post....
just a short and sweet one.....hahahahaha.....to anyone who reads my blog, please pray for my success as i do for all of you.......and to all my dear friends who are having their exams as well (no matter from SK ASMA, SEKOLAH TUN FATIMAH, TAYLOR'S COLLEGE or UNIVERSITY OF NEWCASTLE!!), all i can say is,

행운을 빕니다!

in simple English translated as, GOOD LUCK!!!

i know we've all worked very hard on the exams....insyaAllah, we will pass with flying colours....even passing without all the colours flying would be much grateful for to me......
with that in our minds, lets just step into the exam hall with COOLNESS.....being calm during exams is the best for us......answers will flow easier with such calmness in our mind.......(and also COOLNESS).....hahahaha....with that said, i must stop typing now or this will still be a long post....hahahahaha....

p/s: what is it with me with all the 'COOLNESS' phrase??? apparently, my friends are noticing that i'm using that word quite a lot since i came here....hahaha....COOLNESS....

Happy Chesco Day!!!

2009-06-02T18:40:00.004+10:00

To all my dearest chesco, HAPPY BATCH DAY!!! Chescorulezz o2o6..... it has been 8 years since we've known each other....i thank Allah everyday that He gave me the opportunity to know such special people like you guys....i won't ask for anything more or less than that....thank you my dear CHESCO for entering my life and adding more colours to it....and thank you also for opening my heart to love each and everyone of u.....i treasure & cherish each moment we had together....all those days I had in STF were more meaningful and memorable with u guys there with me... i know that not all the memories we had were sweet memories....of cause there were some bitter memories....but i believe, those ups and downs we had together in STF were what made us who we are today....there are no such memories that can be forgotten no matter how sweet or bitter they were.....i would appreciate them as precious memories which were significant in our lives....so thank you again my dear friends....please bear in mind that i miss and love all of you very much.....though i might not have contacted some of you, u r still in my heart....i pray for your success & happiness...please pray for my success as well...may we meet again with Allah's will.....insyaAllah....

xoxo,
ijat

Happy Teacher's Day!!!

2009-05-16T13:10:00.002+10:00

hahahaha...just like to wish HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!! to all my dearest teachers/lecturers in:
1) SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN SULTANAH ASMA
2) SEKOLAH TUN FATIMAH
3) TAYLOR'S UNIVERSITY COLLEGE

thank u for every lesson u taught me...thanks for bringing me to where i am today....i had really appreciated it....u r all the best teachers i ever had!!! please pray to my success to become a great doctor....may God bless u all!!!

TO MAK, u will always be the greatest teacher i ever had...thank u for everything....i love so much....no one can ever replace u....

rising sun....

2009-05-16T12:36:00.003+10:00

i've always heard about people going to watch the sunrise or sunset since like....forever.....
but anything they say had never triggered me to feel like going....but when my friends suddenly mentioned about going today, my heart felt different...i felt like i have to watch this event at least once in my lifetime....i have to see for myself the beauty behind it that people have always talked about.....though it was a sudden + last minute plan....and though i had lots to do especially studying for my final semester exam and all....but what the heck, i have been stress lately with the abundant amount of assignments, quizzes, doc.coms, learning targets for PBL and studying all the stuff.....
i guess i needed this trip.....

so up i woke at 4.15am and woke up the other girls and the boys by phone.....
we went to nobby's beach.....let me tell you....it was very cold + windy....REALLY WINDY.....really as in that u feel like the wind can blow u up to the air...something like that....i'm not exaggerating...honest!!!

glad that the kari i made was complimented....making some of my friends to miss Malaysia (they said).....hahahaha.....*proud.....we had a blissful breakfast....and the boys sang some Malay songs (which I can rarely hear now as i dont listen to Malaysian radio stations here)....accompanied by a guitar played by some others....it was great....ain & faiz went for a jog (boys made fun of ain saying that she grew fatter here)....so not!!! she's like very MANTAP!!!.....hahahahahhaha
mok & fadhil went fishing....such cute people....too bad that they didn't catch any....

the main event was of course.....watching the SUNRISE!!! all i can say is,

CCCOOOLLLLNNNEEESSSS!!!

it was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen.....subhanallah.......
i'm trully amazed with Allah's power.....He created a short event with such beauty....every little small details made it more beautiful than ever ......
i'm speechless.....it was just absolutely magnificent!!! nothing can compare to that......
thank u Allah for allowing me to have functional eyes to be able to see such a wonderful creation... Alhamdulillah.....
right at that moment, all the thoughts i had about all the workload just went....KAPOOFF!!! all gone....my mind was free & very relaxed......

we went to a coffee shop right after that..thanx everyone...i had great fun!!!

p/s: i'm so gonna get a car so that i can always go and see the sunrise....no need to depend on others anymore....hahahahahah

a dedication for my mother....

2009-05-10T12:17:00.003+10:00

Mom, without you, there would be no me.

Your love, your attention, your guidance,
have made me who I am.
Without you, I would be lost,
wandering aimlessly,
without direction or purpose.
You showed me the way
to serve, to accomplish, to persevere.
Without you, there would be an empty space
I could never fill, no matter how I tried.
Instead, because of you,
I have joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace.
Thank you, mom.
I have always loved you
and I always will.

Mom, I look at you
and see a walking miracle.
Your unfailing love without limit,
your ability to soothe my every hurt,
the way you are on duty, unselfishly,
every hour, every day,
makes me so grateful
that I am yours, and you are mine.
With open arms and open heart,
with enduring patience and inner strength,
you gave so much for me,
sometimes at your expense.
You are my teacher,
my comforter, my encourager,
appreciating all, forgiving all.
Sometimes I took you for granted, Mom,
but I don’t now, and I never will again.
I know that everything I am today
relates to you and your loving care.
I gaze in wonder
as I watch you being you—
my miracle, my mother.

Here is a special song just for u mom......

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

p/s: i love u mom!!! ur the best!!! no one can ever replace u....i love u before, now & forever & ever...

plastic surgery....

2009-05-02T22:22:00.004+10:00

what's with the title u ask???
hahahahahhaha.........funny u should ask....
the story goes like this.....

on one fine but cold morning, my dearest warden during my schooldays in STF, dearest CIK SILAH, buzzed me through ym.......the conversation went something like this.....

cik silah: ijat, awak ade buat plastic surgery ke recently??
me: xdelah cikgu...mane ade....nape cikgu tanye cm tuh???
cik silah: bkn pe...arini kt announcement board kt skolah..ade tertampal a notice from ur college psl kejayaan awk dpt high TER fro SAM....so ade name awak dan ilia...muke ilia btol...tp muke awk...cm bdk cine plus free-hair.....awak ke??
me: what??? mane ade...sejak ble plak saye free-hair...saye tetap same cm dulu....
cik silah: kejap saye amek gmbr notice tuh & tunjuk awak...saya nk dptkn kepastian....kt cni dh kecoh dh antare cikgu2 psl awak...ingat awk dh berubah..ade yg btol2 pecaye yg itu awak....
me: tunjuk la saye gmbr tuh..........

(after the pictures were shown)........

me: hish!!! ade plak tu saye...tu minah cine mane tuh ntah....
cik silah: saye dh agak dh...x mungkin tu awk....bagoss la...jgn lupe asal usul awk....
me: saye xkn lupe.....mmg tu confirm bkn saye...cikgu sebarkn la ye kt cikgu2 laen...clearkn my name......hehehehhe.....

that's about it.....seriously...what was the taylor's people thinking when sending that picture to my school??? can they tell that the girl in the picture was totally a chinese??? buta ka??? but it was really funny....the thoughts of the teachers all talking to each other asking whether that was actually me or not......to think that there are even some teachers who believed that it was really me was the most hilarious thing i can ever imagine....just to get things right, i haven't changed...i'm still the same student from STF....but maybe with slight changes which were only for the better....cik silah, thanx for trusting me!!! hehehehehehe......

so what was the picture which triggered such a hot gossip among my dearest teachers back in STF?????

p/s: what do you think??? does that picture look even a bit like me??? u decide....

a breathtaking journey.....

2009-04-17T08:47:00.007+10:00

it has meanings in both ways. the real breathtaking as in it was incredible. and also the literal meaning of taking my breath because it was also tiring as it took a whole day. but it was all worth it. i was really glad that i took this journey with my dearest friends: ilia, nadia & anne......

where did we go, u ask????

the royal sydney easter show!!!!

we woke up like 4.45am for prayers & getting ready and stuff. then we called the cab to pick us up and send us to the Broadmeadow train station.

it was a cold morning. we had to change train at Strathfield station to go to OLYMPIC PARK.... we arrived like 9.15am and the place was........FULL OF PEOPLE!!! we were thinking, 'did everybody sleep here last night or something???'......
we got our maps & started walking.....the place was huge, i tell u....

where did we run to 1st??????
THE SHOWBAGS HALL!!!!! hahahahahahaha.....ilia was to be blamed for this....
she told us about all these interesting showbags where you buy a showbag for a very low price and get like so many stuff in it which would cost a whole lot more if u buy them individually....
so i bought 3 showbags: Madison, Marykate & Ashley and also Lizzie McGuire (for dearest NINI...I LOVE YOU!!!) for only AUD30...
which would cost me a total of AUD200 if i buy the stuff individually.....hahahahaha
amazing isnt it???

then we took some crazy rides....1st we took the swing-like ride which swing u like SUPER FAST....hahahahahaha.....but that was just the little ride...we just took that ride to increase our adrenaline flow.......hahahahahahahha
then we took the real thing....i dont quite remember was the name...but it was SUPER SCARY!!! but also SUPER FUN!!!

we also entered the HAUNTED HOTEL...which was like....phewie....it was such a lame haunted hotel...there was nothing to scream about.....

then we took the CRAZY COASTER!!! and that was totally AWESOME!! honestly, i liked it more than the roller coaster....

at one point, my heart was racing tremendously fast that all i did was prayed to ALLAH in my heart for my safety.....alhamdulillah, my prayer is granted.....

after finishing our prayers, we went to the stadium for a few shows: TRUE BLUE SHOW (story about a courageous dog), MOTOR SHOW (fantastic!! my mouth was wide open due to amusement) and......the most wonderful show of all...........

FIREWORKS!!!!

we went back straight that night after the fireworks and arrived safely back in Newcastle around 1am.........
summary.........the Royal Sydney Easter Show was a.........

BLAST!!!!!!

pics for autumn gath 2009.....

2009-04-12T10:06:00.004+10:00

autumn gathering 2009....

2009-04-12T09:37:00.002+10:00

i was freakin' excited when the easter holiday started......woah!!!!! yiiippppiiiieeee!!! seriously jubilant!!! i joined my very loving-kind-understanding-hardworking-nice-pretty seniors for the autumn gathering....and........

YAAAAHHHHHOOOOOO!!!!!

that is the one word that can summarize it all.........
we went for an excursion to toboggan hillpark where we got to ride the toboggan like super fast!!!!
then we went to the sand dune for a super-tiring-but-super-duper-exciting-interesting-amazing-incredible SANDBOARDING!!!!!
though it was quite tiring climbing up the mountain of sand but it was all worth it when we get to slide down the hill with SUPER SPEED!!! hahahahahahahaha

the next day....it was SPORTS DAY!!! i was assigned in blue team (AZRAQ!!!)
bila AZRAQ, bila AZRAQ, bila AZRAQ masok padang,
orang lain terketar-ketar,
bila AZRAQ masok padang......

AZRAQ hot to go....
H.O.T.T.O.G.O...........aum!!!!!

in the morning, we played tradisional games....don't get this wrong...but it wasn't the soft-ayu-like games such as batu seremban or congkak or anything like that.....
we played the rough games! baling selipar and galah panjang....it was such fun!!!
i didn't get to play baling selipar coz we have lots of members in a group, so we had to divide the games among us...but i got to play galah panjang...not to be proud of myself but i was the one that made our team won for galah panjang...hahahahaha..the secret??? be extra quite n just ran as fast as u can....doesn't sound like me does it???
in the evening, we got to play, NETBALL!!!!! it was great....i got to be GA (goal attacker)....
hahahahaha...got to shoot some points for my team....felt great!!! though covered in sweat but it was ALL GOOD!!!! we had lots of fun.....

p/s: pictures coming up soon....i forgot to charge my camera..so my pictures are in other people's camera...hahahahaha.....

coolness....

2009-03-29T20:20:00.003+11:00

yesterday, after 2 months of no real exercise, i joined the sisters here in a match of netball. though the last time i played was like standard 6 back when i was light enough to jump high as to shoot the goal. but whatever. i still enjoyed the game. it seems that most of us don't know that much about netball either. as long as we all have the team spirit and determination, we try our best to enjoy the game & not to worry much about the competition. who cares about scores??? hahahahaha. who am i kidding. i care. not!!! but i really sweat. so, i was very satisfied.

today, woke up with a bad body ache. seriously, THE WHOLE BODY. from the netball game of course. showed that i really don't work up that much. whatever. this morning, it was my 1st time ever participating in the CIRCLE K activity. got lucky i guess. why?? haha. we went to Stockton Beach!!! we rode a 4 wheel drive, driven by da great Lance (love ya Lance!!). we went through the sand dune. and may i say. IT WAS AWESOME!!! the place look exactly like a desert. it felt as if we were in a different country. saudi arabia maybe. Lance drove us down a sand mountain which was like 2-STOREY HIGH!!! my heart stopped beating at one moment. hahahahahaha. but it was simply incredible. we also got to slide down while sitting on a 1-storey high sand mountain. once we reached down, i felt like sandman (coz my i was covered in sand). who cares about PH assignment?? who cares about all the muscles i'm supposed to memorise for HUBS??? why worry about all Working Problem research??? to hell with all that. {just at the moment though}

to summarize this whole weekend: it was total COOLNESS!!!

.......back to all the assignments.......~stop~

EARTH HOUR....

2009-03-29T02:13:00.003+11:00

it was really interesting to know that such hour in a special day ever existed. i think this campaign is for a really good cause. at least each and everyone of us who are living in this beautiful planet with lots of blessing from Allah can contribute to mother earth. it might be just a little contribution but i truly feel that it can bring a great difference if everyone participate. i know we did, my housemates n me. it was a memorable experience frankly speaking. though all we did was eat and talk with candles n a colourful light (operate by batteries) in the living room. it made our neighbourhood to a halt for a moment n think about great gives we had from the earth. plus it's a great time to deepen my bonding with my fellow housemates. we had a great chat n delicious fried rice (thanx hani & ilia for cooking!). all i want to say is that, do whatever is in our force to help the earth if we ever want it to maintain it's 'well-being' for our children n grandchildren in the future. every deed is a good deed no matter big or small. Allah will repay any good doings from us. Insya-Allah. Amin....

Hip2x....HOORAY!!!

2009-03-25T13:45:00.002+11:00

internet is successfully installed in my house starting from today onwards....i'm SUPER SUPER HAPPY & EXCITED!!! i mean after nearly 2 months of living here in newcastle, i'm going all crazy for not having to connect to outside world n contact with all my friends and family in Malaysia n elsewhere....i went bad by 'stealing' my neighbour's internet line (his fault though for not putting a security when connecting to the network)....hahahahahaha...conforting myself i guess.....all i can is, 'Get ready world!!! Ijat is back!!!'....

mosque built....

2009-03-21T22:24:00.002+11:00

makes sense much???? hahahahahaha.....this post this dedicated specially for my eldest brother...

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU!!!!
Moga kekal hingga akhir hayat....

at last, i got a new family member on board....congratz bawan!!! hope we are all happy together...
make sure to really take good care of other people's daughter....
sad that i can't be there in one of ur happiest moments in life......
but i do pray for the best for you....both of you.......

p/s: have ur honeymoon in aussie!!!

a journey to remember...

2009-03-16T23:51:00.004+11:00

Saturday, 14 March 2009
3.30am- woke up
4.00am- had breakfast
4.30am- wheels start rolling

WHY? WHERE? WHO? HOW? All of us 1st year Malaysian sisters went for a trip to SYDNEY!!! With our dearest seniors. By cars which were driven by them. And may I summarize the trip in 3 words, “IT WAS GREAT!!!” truly suited the theme of our jaulah planned by our seniors, a journey to remember….

We went to Paddys Market, Sydney Convention Hall, The Harbour, Sydney Opera House and Royal Botanical Garden. It’s not like we went to that many places but it was an incredible trip. Maybe it was enhanced by the places that we have yet to explore during that time. But to us, it was the people we went with was what it counts. I went together with my now close housemates, superb friends and also amazing seniors!!!

We had such great fun together taking pictures and get crazy and stuff. All those experience really took a whole lot of burden and tension we were all feeling from another whole week of adapting in the life of medical students. Honestly, I had a blast!! With this trip, it made me realize such incredible people in my life that Allah had blessed upon to be a part of my life. I am truly grateful to my Creator, Allah SWT for such great friends and seniors. Plus, another bonus lesson I learnt from the trip was, I can sometime be a good CO-DRIVER. I didn’t sleep at all the whole way back from Sydney though we had such a tiring day and it was really late at night. Mak, Abah, u shud be proud of me!!!

As for classes and tutorials this week, I pledge to myself that I will work harder to perform better this week. Hahaha. Maybe talk more in my tutorials this time around. At least I’m starting to catch up with the FRSs now. I understand better. Even some Australian jokes too. Hahahahahahahahahahaha. Its all good here. And I’m grateful to Allah for that.

class commences...

2009-03-10T12:32:00.002+11:00

The 1st week of class is now over. I'm done with my anxiousness about how am I going to go through my 1st week.

Fixed Resource Session a.k.a. Lecture
All I can say is: 'Ya Allah! Please help this humble servant of yours'. I know I wasn't the only one saying this. This also goes to all other fellow Malaysians of my batch. We were all stunned. Haha. Maybe I am exaggerating. It’s just that we were struggling with the different-accent and fast-speaking Australian lecturers. I was trying hard to jot down whatever I heard come out from their mouths. Funny thing is, when I was busy writing, the lecturer was already on another subtopic. At the end of the lecture, I was just left blur. Hahahahahahahha. And seriously. Australian students really speak their minds out. They just raised their hands and spoke out. Comparing the answer floating in my mind with theirs, I feel completely stupid. They were much younger than I am but they are really mature in their thinking skills. When Ain & Nadia asked their questions, we were laughing quietly because the lecturer chose to answer at a slower rate of speaking (maybe got the idea that we got no clue of his lecture). Hahahaha….

Elective: Musculoskeletal Anatomy
Hahahahahaha. It is as scary as it sounds. There were lots of information to be memorized even for the 1st lecture. Totally freaked out!!! I was just paying attention for like 20 minutes the most, then started to scribble around my notebook. Hahahahaha. Bad thing to do but I can’t help it. Maybe it was my fault since I didn’t study 1st before going into lecture. Hahahaha. I’ll make it up on this week. The lab session was SO COOL!!! We got to touch real bones and real muscles from cadavers. AWESOMENESS!!! Can’t wait for the next lab session.

PBL group
To any who doesn’t know, PBL stands for Problem-Based Learning. This method of learning is a totally different method than any method I have encounter in my 19 years of studying in Malaysia. To me, it is an outstanding method. It makes the students work hard for their own knowledge (instead of being spoon-fed!). I met my groupmates and they were totally AWESOME!!! I’m the only Malaysian in my group. Most of my groupmates are taking medicine as their 2nd or 3rd degree. Isn’t that like totally cool?? I can really ‘tabik spring!!!’ these people. They are SUPER-FRIENDLY bunch of people. They are really concern about me (as I’m the only person who uses English as a 2nd language) by saying that I can ask them to repeat or explain to me whatever they are saying as many times as I need until I understand the topic. Since we also have rotations on who will be bringing food into tutorials, they are also concern about what food can they bring because they know that I can only eat HALAL food. INCREDIBLE right??? My dearest groupmates, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

I guess that’s all on my report about my 1st week. I hope I’ll go through the lectures better for the weeks to come.

P/S: Riman & Fazrul made a surprise visit here last Saturday!!! Super shocking!!! But really glad they came. Thanx guys!!! Will be visiting u guys next weekends too, insyaAllah….

my homey home.....

2009-03-05T11:43:00.006+11:00

So this is the rough picture of my house here. It may look small but to us, it's quite big for 4 people. And it feels very homey too in here. As a bonus, it is near to campus just like etiara was to taylors college. Makes me walk to campus everyday. Surely, I can reach the target of 10, 000 steps a day to keep myself fit & healthy!!! I'm currently doing some house shopping to buy new bed linen, curtains n boards to decorate my room. I'm planning to make it PURPLE!!! hahahahha.... I'll post more photos when I'm done doing just that.

Newcastle, Aussie!!!

2009-03-02T16:34:00.000+11:00

Haha. This post entry doesn’t mean that I have already gotten my internet connection in my house. It’s just that I am too impatient to update my blog. So, I had to update this blog through the campus’s Huxley Library.

Well, I have already been here in Newcastle, Australia for a full 3 weeks. So I have dedicated this entry to fully comment and share my experience here. Haha, just like an essay, I will divide my comments into a few aspects.

WEATHER
Truthfully, I really think that the weather here is insanely unpredictable. From the day we 1st land here, the day was extremely hot when we were expecting it to be at least cooler than Malaysia for goodness sake. Maybe Allah thinks that we weren’t grateful enough that for da whole next week, the days were rainy, very wet, strong wind & extremely cold. Seriously cold!! I can’t even step on the marble floor of my house, just jumping over from one carpet to another. Alhamdulillah, we learnt our lesson and were grateful with whatever weather Allah decides for us. For the time being, the weather is just nice and we are loving it!!!

PEOPLE
The local community is VERY FRIENDLY!!! We really expected that the community is some sort of like the city people back in Malaysia. On contrary, the people here can just greet us no matter who we are, what religion we are in or what skin colour we have. I am very impressed.
As for the Malaysian community here, all I can say is: SUPER HELPFUL!!! The seniors here are extremely nice to us n very helpful too. They have made our lives, as the 1st year medical students here, going on smoothly. We are able to adapt with an ease with the help from there incredible people. To all the brothers & SISTERS in Newcastle, honestly, from my heart deep down inside: THANK U VERY MUCH!! WE REALLY APPRECIATE IT!! MAY ALLAH BLESS ALL OF U!!!

ZEBRA CROSSING
Hahahaha. This is another aspect that has made me ‘tabik spring!!!’ towards there Australians. Here, cars will immediately stop for pedestrians to cross the road though they haven’t even reach the zebra crossing as yet. I am totally amazed. I mean, when can we even see this happening anywhere in Malaysia. I’m not saying Malaysians are bad people but we can’t deny that most Malaysians can be very rude on the road behind the wheels. Here in Aussie, we even laugh crossing the road thinking that we are treated like royals. (We even made like sort of the ‘princess wave’ while crossing, haha! Very jakun people we are…)

CLOSSING TIME
This is something I don’t quite like about the lifestyle here. Everyday, all the shops & offices close at 5pm at most. Seriously!!! They don’t even have a ‘kedai runcit’ that opens 24 hours (no 7-eleven here by the way). Weekends are worst, some shops don’t even open on Sundays & close very early on Saturdays. During the weekdays, our classes finish at 5pm, making our shopping trip to be cancelled each day. But the daily groceries can be bought in Woolsworth n Coles (which open until 8pm, I think). But come to think of it, this culture is actually very good. There Australians really care about quality time with family. This is the main reason of this early closing time everyday. They make sure that all their job is done by 5pm that they can enjoy the rest of the evening with their loved ones.

ATTIRE
Most Australians like to wear casual attires no matter where they are going, even to campus. U can’t even recognize a medical student when u see one because most of them wears like they are going to the beach or doing gardening or something. Even the lecturers!!! Very simple people there Australians are. But sometimes, their simplicity is brought to a wrong level. Some people, can only wear shorts without t-shirts when doing their grocery shopping. What’s worst is that, they are some people, who I don’t know what is going on in their minds, don’t even wear any type of footwear going around wherever. Crazy huh?! They will just simply walk with bare feet on the hot pavement around the campus or even at the shopping mall. I even saw once that a whole family, the parents with their small kids, not wearing any shoes or slipper shopping in the mall. Up till now, I just can’t make myself to rationalize this behaviour.

I guess I will just stop here. If I continue, I think I might be taking most of my readers time. Hahahahahaha. Not that there are that much more comment. Is just that the aspects I have mentioned are the major ones.
Feeling very excited+anxious all at the same time now. Why?? Because my class officially starts tomorrow. Will be meeting more 1st year Australian medical students. Might feel a bit intimidated but what the heck. If other Malaysian can do it, of course I can too!!!

I will update more about my classes and Australian friends soon.

pics in newcastle....

2009-02-24T15:46:00.004+11:00

p/s: i'll add in any updates soon...still haven't gotten my internet connection at home...but coming real soon..so just wait a little longer...bear with me

gratitude...

2009-02-16T13:38:00.001+11:00

just a short post here...
i would like to wish a million thanks to all who wished me for my 20th birthday...
no more a teenager i am....now a twenty-ager.....
also thanks to all da lovely gifts to anyone who gave me one...

plus, thanks to my new housemates n frenz n all da senior here in NEWCASTLE for such a lovely and surprising party...really appreciated it...with my family n frenz all so far away...
seriously, THANK YOU VVVVEEEERRRRYYYYY MUCH!!!

p/s: i'll add more posts n pictures once i get my internet connection in my new house...hope everyone will wait patiently for what's new n HOT about me...hahahahaha

back to school....

2009-02-02T23:47:00.010+11:00

i know this story might be like 2-weeks 'basi', but i have to tell about it since i promised so many people for da latest update for my blog...plus my internet network freakingly malfunction!!!

so here goes.....

on 16th january, i took a plane to KL where i was picked up by anne's dad & herself...then i was brought to their humble house meeting her lovely mom n friendly sis....da next day, we both went to the University of Newcastle briefing where i got to meet my frenz who r joining together with me (except for faiz n mok since both of them knew nothing bout it then) n da lovely n very helpful seniors...it was great...then anne n me went to a chocolate factory together with the parents....it was so cool...later that evening i took a plane to JB n this is a must tell story................

i was suppose to arrive at 10pm but since there is a group of people who came in late into the plane, i arrived in JB around 10.30pm or so. dah la i've never been in senai airport for like 2 YEARS but woah!! what a change!! enough that it is already late n i'm exhausted...i'm forced to walk for about 3 minutes thru a new closed-pathway...crazy i tell you...but it was all worth it when from afar i saw my dearest YAOPO, NISA!!! her parents brought me to their home n we talked all night (i suddenly forget the fact dat i was tired) till we have no energy left to talk...da next day, i accompanied yaopo n her mom for her grocery-n-buying-for-australia-stuff shopping....dat night we watched ANUGERAH JUARA LAGU n criticized anybody we see...dats what i'm really good at...

then came D' DAY....da day me, Izzatul Nadzirah Ismail, return to da very place which grown me mostly to what i am today, SEKOLAH TUN FATIMAH....seriously, when i n nisa planned for this trip, we were really excited..but dat morning..only ALLAH knows how fast my heart was pumping...we arrived by taxi, put our bags in the common room of block B & went straight to da warden's ofis...entering with shivers, we met kak shikin n cik maimunah aka my wardens n talked for a while…byk dh change. We went out n saw all the students wearing the SAME BAGS (so Japanese-like!!). surprisingly, the 1^st teacher we met was EN.RAHIM aka PAK YEM. He was so nice & even bwk us to their new FACULTY (so Campus-like) where we met MR.ONG. But sedih coz x dpt jumpe Pn.Hadibah. STF students now have a campus-like study system. honestly, i think dat it is very tiring even to watch them being mobile n moving around here n there everytime they finish a class. i mean, it's fine in campus when all we bring is some testpads n some notes.but these kids however, have to bring all sorts of book, textbooks n evercise books, all around.even for one subject we need at least 5 books, what more with 10 subjects? during our days, we have our own class n we have our own locker in da class where we don't have to bring so much books around. dh la dulu we r already sleepy in class, lagi la bdk2 skrg ni. seriously, to da present STFians, aku mmg seriously kesian kt korg n all da best!!!

our old 4 Setia now changed into Pak Yem's faculty

then pg science lab n jumpe Cik Silah, Pn.Norshidah n Pn.Radziah plus Pn.Lim. best gle sembang with them n reminisced our times in the science lab during those days.

Out from there, we met Pak Kamel (still x sdar diri kne kawen, lari le tunang die nanti).masok je bilek guru, we met Pn.(Salbiah+Bahayah+Jayasree+Nakimah+Marlini) n Cik Mastynn(my ‘beloved warden’ yg gle kuat hug me) n Cik Norliza. that was when i got a really BAD NEWS!!! PUTERI SAADONG IS ABOLISHED!!! hanya Allah yg tau betape berkecainye ati aku, EX-PUTERI SAADONG BLOCK PRESIDENT, yg punye semangat dtg pakai baju+tudung purple. it was said dat the decision was done this year due to da actions of the previous year seniors where they physically hit juniors. just wait till i have my hands on them!!!

Then went to da canteen (yg dh super cantek with wooden table n chairs, CLASSY!!), jumpe Pn.(Chong+Rohaiza+Norazian) n Cik Raha n En.(Ujang+Shamsul), Pn.Mahanu blanje kitorg lunch. Sedap gle ble mkn org blanje!!! x smpt nk korek whether STFians still mkn cni x mase recess sbb rase cm the chairs seriously x cukop compared to zaman kitorg dulu2..

then kitorg pg surau..just about da same except for da AIR-CONDITIONERS!!! zaman kitorg x de pon.jeles2. but other than dat, it's still our beloved surau cam dulu...though aku krg pg mase form 5...jahat gak aku nih dulu...

Then, of coz we pg to server room n met da greatest abuji, PAK AWIE!!! Sembang n amek gmbr (gmbr ngan da WINDOW pon ad). really brought back some great memories we had in that particular room n da next room aka DORM KEDUA. then kne plak kasi talk (hahaha..bajet pandai sgt ah) kt juniors tfnet merangkap EX-CEOt..

missing this computer i've been using every nite for speedy internet

DORM KEDUA which is now filled with more hi-tech comp

then kne jumpe ngan da new-said-as-garang-by-others principle to mintak permission to sleep for 1 nite at school.though she talked too much about da new STF to us, but she was very nice but gave green light. as STF is a cluster school, da principal now has VETO POWER to everything going on in da school. so anything pon mmg kne mintak permission die. from what we heard, she is quite fussy n quite ramai not very fond of her. mase kitorg jumpe, x rase pon cm die ALUMNI STF. she doesn't really seem like other ALUMNIs yg we had met before. skrg bdk2 kne pakai tshirt ngan track bottom to prep ptg everyday n each student ade 1 je tshirt tuh.just imagine da smell by da end of da week. but i think it's quite cool dat the new outing attire is like punjabi top n black slack. but please la, why BROWN???? seriously burok gle. jd smart plak ble kaler die cm taik lembu. ok la, better sket from cow's dung la.

how i really miss those cleaning the board duty

then abuji bwk blanje seafood kt gelang patah kt atas laut..blk tu x smpt buat pape, Pn.Saidah plak bwk kuar blanje satay. 1st time rase cm best gle sembang ngan die while eating. Seriously, our rezeki dat day was pouring like a BIG FOUNTAIN….save $$$$$...

ringing any bell anybody???

dat nite we r suppose to sleep in the new-small-no fan-very hot-3 bedded bilek sakit.instead with my PERSUADING POWER, we were allowed to sleep in the warden’s house in block E…nice but byk nyamuk but then better la…at least dpt la aku tidor kt block which was once called PUTERI SAADONG..skrg its just a block for all Tengku Arfah's students form 1-4 since block B is used by form 5 students. itupun at 1st, we heard dat da principle wanted to even change da name of the blocks according to da 1st ladies of malaysia. it's still acceptable to cheer with Jeanne's name, but whoever wants to cheer with Rosmah's name?? but luckyly da plan x jd....

da beds we r supposed to sleep on but the couch n floor r used instead...NICE!!

seriously mlm tuh cm x leh tido...maybe coz happy..tp more becoz of ketiadaan PUTERI SAADONG...i'm seriously devastated. Block E was like a part of me n when it's abolished, it's just like a little part of me is gone too. To all SRIKANDIs yg ex-PUTERI SAADONG..one day, we come back n usulkn penubuhan semula blok E eh???

I went back to after subuh, straight to senai airport back to kedah….

P/S: ble dh sampai STF baru aku rase betape rindunye aku kt skolah...MAJU STF MAJU!!!

passing the time...

2009-01-09T21:03:00.004+11:00

well, since i'm dying due to boredom, i decided to hit the most popular bookstore, POPULAR (obvious isn't it?)....and so, i got myself two book which caught my eyes da most....hehehehe...i still judge a book by its cover....conservative aren't I???

hehehhe....so i just finished one book. and it was totally amazing!! i don't know whether it was because it has been long since i've ever read this kind of book or the author is just brilliant!! at least the book brought me to dreamland...i know da storyline is kind of a fairytale which will never happen to an ordinary girl like me but a girl can have her dreams right?? hehehehehe....

the title says it all...it is all about the love story in the movie line production.....all i can say is, i can imagine how hot da hero of the story is with amazing character.....da girl is just plain n ordinary....so this story can make a girl like dream for such miracle....hehehehehe....dpt yg cm jaejoong pon cukop ah....hahhahahahaha....(baru sebut jaejoong, tros kuar kt mtv nih, AAAHHH!!! nosebleed + brain damage).....

well then, i'm off to read da next book....hopefully a great book as well.....

tagged by ayamak & jajabelle....

2009-01-04T18:06:00.003+11:00

Rule #1-people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule #2-tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.So, let the game begins!

1. Who tagged you?
ris & jaja

2. Do you like tags?
hehehhe...honestly, x ske...but just playing along....

3. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
jadi a very, very, very successful medical lecturer....plus other successes in life...

4. What is your current mood?
extremely bored....

5. What will you do if your crush says he/she adores you too?
nosebleed n major brain damage.....

6. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
i'm not a lesbian....

7. Which will you prefer, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone coz it means dat i'm appreciated.....

8. Who are you really missing right now???
hurm....all j3 members, chesco, my good old frenz.....n...JAEJOONG OPPA!!!

9. If the person you dislike is right in front of you, what will you do?
i dun have anybody i dislike.....hahahahahahaha...(devil's laugh)

10. What do you pray each day for your loved ones?
happiness in this life n afterlife....get what's best for them....success.....

11. What takes you down the fastest?
when someone i trust @ close to back stab me or hurt me in any way....

12. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
i'm a successful medical lecturer, married to a good guy, have at least a child, owning my own Voltswagon....

13. What is the reason that could make you so tensed up?
ntah ah...follow my mood....

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
ris: such a great friend, sweet, but kdg2 ske angkat bakul sendrik....hahahaha....
jaja: 'anak solehah', kuat mkn tp share gak ngan aku....

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single but rich....materialistic gak aku nih...hehehehe....just an honest thought...

16. Would you sacrifice for your loved ones?
of coz....i'd even die for them.....they mean da world to me....

17. What's the character must have in your partner?

pandai masak coz i dun, romantic, cooling coz i hot-tempered...

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneusly, who would you like to pick?
'm very confident that i'm faithful to only one person in my heart....

19. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
i dun forget about horrible things dat easily....

20.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
now? single i guess....no string-attcached.....

21. who is your hero?
nak tanye lg??? my jaejoong oppa of coz!!

22. Who are the 5 person that you would like to tag?
1- ashley: i miss u so much dear....
2- yaopo: x sabar nk jumpe ko...
3- ida: get well soon dear....
4- farahin @ ala: i miss u....
5- atam: lame x jumpe .....

when a new year comes....

2009-01-01T15:19:00.003+11:00

so does our very own new year's resolutions....though i didn't really have one last year (i think)...however, for this brand new year, i'm dedicating myself to some new year's resolutions i made...i'll try my best to fulfill all of them with all my might....here goes:-

MY 2009 NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION
1. be a better muslim...more solat sunat & reading Quran

2. learn to cook....bkn tau nk melantak je keje...nak fly dh weh, sedar diri sket...

3. stop the habit of studying last minute...remember!! ur going to be a medic student? r u suiciding urself by keeping to do that???

4. control my korean addiction...u have to stop waking up for 2-days straight just to watch all those videos....

5. continue learning korean & mandarin whenever free....KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!!!

what more??? let there be 10!!!

6. be a better daughter & sister....help mommy with da bunga telur for abg wan's wedding...stop bullying nini...

7. eat healthier....stop all that chocolate!!!

8. start exercising....look at all da fat at ur belly!!!

9. be a whole better person...enough with criticizing other people...mirror urself 1st!

10. get a boyfriend??? maybe it's time to start hunting.....hehehehe.... :)

that's it think...wish me luck getting all da above done...

happy new year!!!

2009-01-01T03:06:00.002+11:00

2009 is here everybody!!! goodbye 2008!!!

well, 2008 had been a great year....only after SAM result came out of coz....becoz before that, i personally think that 2008 has been hectic+tiresome+stressing+vigor year as a SAM student due to the twin-tower-high load of assignmentssss n testsssss not to mention all da presentationssss n practical experimentsssss......but all was worth it...all da hard work paid off awesomely....but i can also say that 2008 is a nosebleeding+major brain damaging year as only this year that i came across n got to know such an amazing+superb+ridiculously-damn-hot looking+fantastic voice band boy called DONG BANG SHIN KI aka DBSK.....they totally changed my life.....seriously, my close frenz would understand why i said that....plus 2008 was the year when i got closer to my extraordinary classmates n incredible lecturers....thanx all of u!!!....you have been a great part in my life which i would treasure to my last breath.....

and so, that's it about 2008....what is there stored for me in the year 2009???......surely there will be a lot of new things that would come around in my life this year....new country, new friends, new experience, new weather, new food, etc............i am going to start a new life as a medical student this year in University of Newcastle, Australia.....feeling very anxious+excited all at the same time....thankfully, seniors r really great as in really helpful to us in any way they could be....thanks my dear seniors!! hope to have a great bonds with u guys soon!!! bye abah, mak, nini n abg wan.....i will miss all of u...i will do my best n come back to be a great medical lecturer....this i promise u....pray for my success....

so, i think that's it with me 'bebel'-ing crap.....my true intention is just to wish to all my family, friends, teachers and everybody.........
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! may this year be a blessing to us all & gives us great things to come our way.....

tribute to j3...

2008-12-30T00:01:00.005+11:00

i had nothing to do today...so...i sat in front of my computer for 5 hours doing this...n the result is very satisfying n touching to me...

this video is expecially dedicated to all my fellow classmates of j3....hope this video gives u da same impact as it did to me...got me smiling, crying n laughing all at da same time....well, here goes...

p/s: missing u guys so much...seriously!!! keep praying for our success....we'll meet again soon insyaAllah...

love of my life???

2008-12-29T19:31:00.000+11:00

well, i dont have one as yet but i do have someone in my mind...he's such a great person with a cool personality n outstanding cooking ability (surpassing mine, of coz)...which makes him the perfect person to complement me....he is none other than my dearest KIM JAEJOONG!!!

p/s: it might just be an unachievable dream, but, it's the thought that counts right???

salam maal hijrah...

2008-12-29T15:00:00.000+11:00

assalamualaikum.....

well, after thinking about nearly more than a million times, i finally decided to create my own blog. plus, i am addicted (seriously) to reading other people's blogs at the moment... i mean i really open n read my frens blogs everyday....thanx everyone...u guys really inspired me to make this blog....

so let's cut to the chase shall we? well, this blog is for me to fill in all the events n experience i endure in my life...as in all the small pieces of memories (happy, sad, sweet, frustrating..etc) which make me, well, ME.....izzatul nadzirah ismail.....

p/s: really appreciate any comments from any of u guys....