the end

i see it...i can see it...
the end of this road...
the end of this short-but-feels-freakingly-long journey......
i can see the goal....
i can see where it can lead me....
where i could be.....
where i would be....
where i should be....

but.....................

is it where i want to be?

does it feel right?
maybe its not supposed to feel right...
maybe we just have to do it...
and see...
this is the best for me....
but really???

is it where i want to be?
or just where i am supposed to be?

once upon a time....

once upon a time, you were my childhood friend
once upon a time, you saved me when i was almost drowned in a kiddy pool
once upon a time, you let me blow the candle of your birthday cake
once upon a time, you accompanied me through the night if i was scared
once upon a time, you helped me through primary school
once upon a time, you motivated me when i was down
once upon a time, you showed me that failing once does not mean you are a failure
once upon a time, you were someone i looked up upon,
once upon a time, you were my reference book
once upon a time, you were my counselor to any of my problems
once upon a time, you were my elevator to the 2nd level of our house
once upon a time, you gave me flowers as a gift to wish me luck for exams
once upon a time, you were super generous and giving me whatever I want
once upon a time, you were my brother..........

and still is in my heart though i may not be in yours,
but this has to stop,
it hurts everytime i think about it,
how much longer can i linger around this sad feeling?
life must go on,
you moved on,
and so should I.........

you will still be in my prayers though i doubt i will be in yours,
but i believe Allah has His reasons for things to be the way it is now,
i firmly believe there is a reason that we are all in this situation,
insyaAllah one day I will see it and i hope so do you,
because truely and honestly at the moment,
i have no faith in you but full faith in Him....

may Allah give us strength and patience to go through this,
and may the only outcome of this whole mess is that
me, mom, dad and the rest of the family get much closer to Allah and His paradise
with or without you....................

my prayers for you mom & dad...

Ya Allah
Rendahkanlah suaraku bagi mereka
Perindahlah ucapanku di depan mereka
Lunakkanlah watakku terhadap mereka dan
Lembutkan hatiku untuk mereka

Ya Allah,
Berilah mereka balasan yang sebaik-baiknya, atas
didikan mereka padaku dan Pahala yang besar atas
kesayangan yang mereka limpahkan padaku,peliharalah
mereka sebagaimana mereka memeliharaku.

Ya Allah,
Apa saja gangguan yang telah mereka rasakan
atau kesusahan yang mereka deritakan kerana aku
atau hilangnya sesuatu hak mereka kerana perbuatanku
jadikanlah itu semua penyebab susutnya
dosa-dosa mereka dan bertambahnya pahala kebaikan
mereka dengan perkenan-Mu ya Allah
hanya Engkaulah yang berhak membalas kejahatan dengan
kebaikan berlipat ganda.

Ya Allah,
Bila magfirah-Mu telah mencapai mereka sebelumku,
Izinkanlah mereka memberi syafa’at untukku.
Tetapi jika sebaliknya, maka izinkanlah aku memberi
syafa’at untuk mereka,sehingga kami semua berkumpul
bersama dengan santunan-Mu di tempat kediaman
yang dinaungi kemulian-Mu, ampunan-Mu serta rahmat-Mu… .

Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang memiliki Kurnia Maha
Agung, serta anugerah yang tak berakhir dan Engkaulah
yang Maha Pengasih diantara semua pengasih.

Amin Ya Rabbul Alamin..

Credit: aidanatasya.com

missing u....

I miss you,
I miss the loud music coming
from your room,
I miss the warmth of knowing
You're just a call away,
I miss the way we fought and
played,
I miss seeing your big bright
smile,
I miss getting kicked out of
your room,
I miss seeing you here and
there,
I miss cooking you breakfast
lunch and dinner,
I miss hearing you come in
at night,
I miss making you wear your
seat belt,
I miss holding your hand to
pray,
I miss your smell,
I miss you with all my might,
I miss the way we would fight,
I miss my brother,
I miss my friend,
I miss you &
will forever love you

please come home

Please come home,
I miss you so.
More then you could,
Possibly know.

Things have changed,
Since you've been gone.
No one to talk to
And no shoulder to cry on.

Our family and your friends
We all cried so much.
We miss you and your laugh
You're voice and soft touch.

I miss you and your smile.
I could add to this list,
Of everything I miss,
But there's no end, it doesn't exist.

I wish I could see you,
Just one last chance,
To see you smile,
Even if its just a glance.

I wish I could tell you
How much you meant to me
Just one last time,
Before you were set free.

You have a place in my heart
I love you now, I love you still
I always have
And always will

never borrow from the future...NEVER!

An Angel says, 'Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn't happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice.'

1. Go to bed on time.
2 Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
3. Say No to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
4. Delegate tasks to capable others.
5. Simplify and un clutter your life.
6. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
7. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
8. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.
9. Take one day at a time.
10. Separate worries from concerns . If a situation is a concern, let go of the anxiety . If you can't do anything about a situation, forget it.
11. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
12.. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
13. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
14. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
15. Carry a book with you to read while waiting in line( for muslim fellows a mini mus'haf should always be with you.
16. Get enough rest.
17. Eat right.
18. Get organized so everything has its place.
19. Listen to a tape (for muslims preferable Qoran )while driving that can help improve your quality of life.
20. Write down thoughts and inspirations.
21. Every day, find time to be alone.
22. Having problems? Talk to someone. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed.
23. Make friends.
24. Laugh.
25. Laugh some more!
26 Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
27. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).
28. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
29. Sit on your ego.
30 Talk less; listen more.
31. Slow down.
32. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
33. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before. IT MAY HAVE A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU.

because we are muslims

seriously, this story has never failed to make me teary-eyed.....

Once upon a time, long long ago, in a faraway land (Madinah) during Amirul Mu'minin Umar Al-Khattab's Caliphate, a boy had came travelling to Madinah with his camel.

Along his journey, he had to rest and sleep, while his camel goes grazing, unfortunately, in another fella's land.

That fella turns out to be an old man who wasn't that happy. The old man throw a stone to the camel, causing it to be injured and die.

As the boy wakes up, seeing his camel in that condition, he became too angry and upset, throwing the stone back to the old man. The old man bleeds and died due to it.

The boy was uncomfortable with his action and waited at the spot until 2 men appeared, the 2 men turns out to be the sons of the old man. They too weren't happy and thus, brought the boy to see the Caliph, which was Umar Al-Khattab.

During the proceding, Umar(ra) asked the boy whether he did or did not kill the old man. The boy confessed, however, he was sorry as it wasn't his intention, but was out of rage. Howevver, the boy still had to be punished by Qisas, blood with blood.

This boy, however, asked if the execution could be postponed, as he is an orphan and he has a younger brother back home. His father has entrusted wealth to him, thus, he'll have to go back and make sure that his brother gets the wealth.

Umar(ra) was ready to grant him the postponement, with a condition, that he is to find a guarantor.

As the boy was a traveller, and no one in Madinah had seen him before, people were looking down at the earth, people aren\'t willing as the consequence would be that their head to be sacrificed. No one was looking up, he had to screen through the crowd for someone who's willing.

Suddenly, a hand showed up, and guess whose hand was it? It was Abu Dzar Al-Ghifari's.

So, the boy was released to finish with his business.

The first day, people had already begin to wait, but there were no signs of him.

The second day, people started to become anxious.

The third day came, there was still no news about the boy. People became more anxious and  started to get worried. Would it really be Abu Dzar's head tha\'s going to be chopped off?

The day was passing by, hours by hours.

It was past Dzuhur..
Past Asar..
Maghrib is nearing..

And that's the boy!!!(with his brother...)
The boy was running towards Abu Dzar(ra). Then Abu Dzar(ra) told him, the day hasn't ended, Maghrib hasn\t come. So, Abu Dzar(ra) and the 2 boys came to Umar(ra).

Umar(ra) was surprised that the boy showed up. So he asked him:

" Why had you come back, you know that I would not send anyone to chase after you? "

What was the boys' answer?

He said: " Oh Amirul Mu'mineen, my reason is simple. I didn't want anyone to say that a Muslim was irresponsible and had not fulfill his words. How can I let someone who was willing to be my guarantor, be killed because of me?"

Subhaanallah..Umar(ra) was amazed. He then turned to Abu Dzar (ra) as to why had he accepted the responisibility, as Abu Dzar barely knew the boy, and that it could cost him his head.

What did Abu Dzar (ra) say?
"I did it because I didnt want people to say that a Muslim had asked for help, and no Muslims were willing to help him. Even if it has caused my life, I would be a martyr, as I was innocent."

Umar(ra) was amazed, however, the execution would still have to go on.

The air was still again. A pious boy is to be killed.

Suddenly..
The brothers then came up and asked the boy to be relieved as they had pardoned him.

Allahuakbar!!!

People began to get confused, Umar(ra) then asked the brothers why had they suddenly changed their decision?
The brothers said:

" We didn't want people to say that a Muslim has asked for forgiveness from another Muslim, and he was not forgiven."

Joy filled the air. Joy in the sound of takbir and tahmid.

p/s: i'm striving the be that muslim..insyaAllah

ujian: musibah atau rahmat?

Tidak ada ujian yang Allah turunkan kat kite yg kite x mampu nk handle...

Allah bagi ujian tu sbb Dia sayang kt kita kan? Sbb Allah rindu sgt kt kita....nak dengar suara kita bercakap dengan Dia, rindu segala amal baik yang kita buat untuk Dia, rindu nk tgk kita dgn rendah diri sujud di tikar sejadah untuk memohon pertolongan....

kenapa la kita ni senang sgt lupa kat Allah sampaikan Dia perlu menurunkan kesusahan atau dugaan dlm hidup, barulah kita terkial-kial nak merayu padaNya.....

i learnt this the hard way.....and still am learning...

but remember, don't despair and never lose hope....jgn igt once u get into trouble, its the end of the world...Allah is always there to help and guide you through it if u ask and put full trust in Him with all tour heart....

walaupun ditimpa kesusahan, be grateful...say Alhamdulillah....think about other people who has bigger and worse problems than what u have...insyaAllah, by doing so, you will have much gratitude to Allah

obstacles does not mean that its punishment....tu la mentality yang most of us have....sbb tu kite senang jauh dari Allah..why? sbb kadang2 kita rasa, kita dh buat baik dah tp Allah still bagi kesusahan...jgn fikir mcm tu...nanti kite senang putus asa dgn Allah...

instead think of it as a blessing...we might not see it yet but there is a silver lining somewhere somehow....Allah created us, so of course He knows what is best for us....who are we to think that this thing is good for us but that thing is bad for us...what do we know? we don't even have the nearest answer to most medical problems within our own body...

enough chatter, lets remember Allah in every single breath that we take and be grateful with everything that you have in life...

this is a reminder for all of us especially to myself