once upon a time....

once upon a time, you were my childhood friend
once upon a time, you saved me when i was almost drowned in a kiddy pool
once upon a time, you let me blow the candle of your birthday cake
once upon a time, you accompanied me through the night if i was scared
once upon a time, you helped me through primary school
once upon a time, you motivated me when i was down
once upon a time, you showed me that failing once does not mean you are a failure
once upon a time, you were someone i looked up upon,
once upon a time, you were my reference book
once upon a time, you were my counselor to any of my problems
once upon a time, you were my elevator to the 2nd level of our house
once upon a time, you gave me flowers as a gift to wish me luck for exams
once upon a time, you were super generous and giving me whatever I want
once upon a time, you were my brother..........

and still is in my heart though i may not be in yours,
but this has to stop,
it hurts everytime i think about it,
how much longer can i linger around this sad feeling?
life must go on,
you moved on,
and so should I.........

you will still be in my prayers though i doubt i will be in yours,
but i believe Allah has His reasons for things to be the way it is now,
i firmly believe there is a reason that we are all in this situation,
insyaAllah one day I will see it and i hope so do you,
because truely and honestly at the moment,
i have no faith in you but full faith in Him....

may Allah give us strength and patience to go through this,
and may the only outcome of this whole mess is that
me, mom, dad and the rest of the family get much closer to Allah and His paradise
with or without you....................

my prayers for you mom & dad...

Ya Allah
Rendahkanlah suaraku bagi mereka
Perindahlah ucapanku di depan mereka
Lunakkanlah watakku terhadap mereka dan
Lembutkan hatiku untuk mereka

Ya Allah,
Berilah mereka balasan yang sebaik-baiknya, atas
didikan mereka padaku dan Pahala yang besar atas
kesayangan yang mereka limpahkan padaku,peliharalah
mereka sebagaimana mereka memeliharaku.

Ya Allah,
Apa saja gangguan yang telah mereka rasakan
atau kesusahan yang mereka deritakan kerana aku
atau hilangnya sesuatu hak mereka kerana perbuatanku
jadikanlah itu semua penyebab susutnya
dosa-dosa mereka dan bertambahnya pahala kebaikan
mereka dengan perkenan-Mu ya Allah
hanya Engkaulah yang berhak membalas kejahatan dengan
kebaikan berlipat ganda.

Ya Allah,
Bila magfirah-Mu telah mencapai mereka sebelumku,
Izinkanlah mereka memberi syafa’at untukku.
Tetapi jika sebaliknya, maka izinkanlah aku memberi
syafa’at untuk mereka,sehingga kami semua berkumpul
bersama dengan santunan-Mu di tempat kediaman
yang dinaungi kemulian-Mu, ampunan-Mu serta rahmat-Mu… .

Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang memiliki Kurnia Maha
Agung, serta anugerah yang tak berakhir dan Engkaulah
yang Maha Pengasih diantara semua pengasih.

Amin Ya Rabbul Alamin..

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